what is going on ?
i’ve been thinking for the past few weeks about whether i will or won’t have kids and i don’t think i will because honestly i think that bringing somebody into this world against their will with the only way out having to be something that inflicts pain on either you or others is horrible, but i just wish my parents had thought the same. why would you put somebody on this planet knowing that a) it’s going to get worse and b) they didn’t ask to be put here. i didn’t ask to be put here, i can’t be taken out without a trace which makes it infinitely harder, and i can not seem to cope no matter how hard i try. i’m constantly angry at my parents and my family and can never figure out why, but i think i’m just angry because they put me here.
@alienprincess444 pls stay okay I can be there for you xx
Hey there,
I hear you. I totally understand why you are feeling the way you are feeling. I once had felt the same. Just know, what you are feeling right now isn't forever. It might seem tough, but I'll tell you, your life isn't just about your family and the feeling you are feeling!
And about having kids, you don't have to figure out your future now. You yourself are pretty young, and you don't have to sort your life right now!
Regardless, if you wish to talk about it more, I'll be here. You aren't alone in this. You were never alone in feeling the feeling you're feeling. Let me know if you ever want to talk about it more!!
@alienprincess444
This is such a relatable post and something not enough space or attention is given to. It takes real courage to admit these fears and worries and speak your truth about this. I sense how frustrating it is to experience the ambivalence about deciding whether to bring children into such an imperfect world, and it makes sense it could show up as anger. Feeling helpless about creating a life in a world where they will inevitably experience pain and fear and loss and not being able to protect them from it is very difficult and your feelings are so valid. Hoping you find the clarity needed to focus on the message your own anger might be bringing up for you and hopefully find some peace and compassion for yourself in struggling with this. You are definitely not alone in it!
