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anonyHuman2290
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PathStep 15 Compassion hearts115 Forum posts30 Forum upvotes32 Current upvotes32 Age GroupTeen Last activeSeptember, 2026 Member sinceJanuary 3, 2025
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Pain
Depression Support / by anonyHuman2290
Last post
 October 24th, 2025
...See more Ever being in so much emotional pain that it feels physical? Like someone just punched you in the gut or like your heart is literally squeezed in your chest? It's all not knew to me,yet it is. It's like, I feel this way on a daily basis, but It still hurts every time. Shouldn't I be used to it by now? All the rejection, the loneliness,the harsh words, the threats.... just every negative thing in my life. It shouldn't all be a new thing to me.
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Secret Touch
Poetry / by anonyHuman2290
Last post
 August 20th, 2025
...See more Ghosts of the past,they haunt me night and day. The night is dark,the shadows creep. Whispering secrets,I can't seem to lay. A father's touch,a secret I must keep. The memories replay a haunting refrain. A pain that lingers,a never ending rain. I was just nine,in so many ways. I try to forget, but the echoes remain. A whisper of fear,a constant searing pain. A child so small in those lost days. Chorus Blues falling down,a relentless icy rain. Freezing my soul, erasing no pain but.... Only laughter, sunshine,my childhood dreams so bright. Replaced by shadows consumed by endless nights. Each beating heart a phantom lost in time. A constant aching void a life long slow decline. He said he loved me, whispered sweet lies, But his touch was poison,a dark disguise, I was so happy,so carefree and bright, Then the darkness fell, extinguishing the light, The world felt silent,my voice unheard, The weight of secrets, a very heavy burden, He never said sorry, never showed a tear, But left me broken,year after year. Lost in the shadows, feeling just as lost, As I did that night,at such a terrible cost, Feeling so hopeless,a future unclear, Drowning in a body,year after year, I don't see myself getting better, Trapped in this darkness forever.
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Secret Touch
Trauma Support / by anonyHuman2290
Last post
 August 23rd, 2025
...See more Ghosts of the past,they haunt me night and day. The night is dark,the shadows creep. Whispering secrets,I can't seem to lay. A father's touch,a secret I must keep. The memories replay a haunting refrain. A pain that lingers,a never ending rain. I was just nine,in so many ways. I try to forget, but the echoes remain. A whisper of fear,a constant searing pain. A child so small in those lost days. Blues falling down,a relentless icy rain. Freezing my soul, erasing no pain but.... Only laughter, sunshine,my childhood dreams so bright. Replaced by shadows consumed by endless nights. Each beating heart a phantom lost in time. A constant aching void a life long slow decline. He said he loved me, whispered sweet lies, But his touch was poison,a dark disguise, I was so happy,so carefree and bright, Then the darkness fell, extinguishing the light, The world felt silent,my voice unheard, The weight of secrets, a very heavy burden, He never said sorry, never showed a tear, But left me broken,year after year. Lost in the shadows, feeling just as lost, As I did that night,at such a terrible cost, Feeling so hopeless,a future unclear, Drowning in a body,year after year, I don't see myself getting better, Trapped in this darkness forever.
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Utterly lost.
Trauma Support / by anonyHuman2290
Last post
 August 26th, 2025
...See more So I'm what now? Fifteen? Why do I feel otherwise. I mean,I don't feel any different than I did when I was 11 or 12 and especially 13. It just feels all the same. It's like nothing in my life ever changes or ever will change. It's like I'm going to keep staying up all night doing absolutely nothing other than think about how horrible my life is. I know I need help. But I know I can't get it. Do I even deserve it?
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I'm confused.
Self-Harm Recovery / by anonyHuman2290
Last post
 February 20th, 2025
...See more I don't know if this is regarded as SH but I'd really like to know. When ever I feel immense emotional pain that I can't handle,I usually hurt myself. As long as I'm holding an object, I'll keep hitting my hands with it unknowingly. I actually seems as though I'm in a trance,I don't know when I start doing it and I only stop when someone's able to snap me out of it. Is that considered SH?
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