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anxjulia
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Delusional or not
Relationship Stress / by anxjulia
Last post
 July 18th
...See more I have a crush on my bestfriend. Couple years ago I had a boyfriend. We broke up and two months later my bestfriend and i were on our friend birthday. He was drinking alcohol, I didn't. We had a sleepover at the friend's house that night, we were talking a lot and eventually it was time to go to sleep so we laid next to eachothers and he grabbed my hand. I panicked and pretended to fall asleep to pull my hand away because I felt like I was cheating on my ex (yeah, that's how messed up my past relationship was to make me think im cheating on him even tho we broke up). Two years passed and im scared that I'm starting to catch feelings after I healed from the past relationship. I have a crush on my bestfriend now. And i feel like he still might like me that way as well but then there's these thoughts in my head that says 'you're not pretty enough', 'you don't deserve to be happy, you should find a relationship thats as *** up as you', 'do you really belive that he would choose you out of all this pretty girls?'. And i would like to say that i am not insecure. I mean i am but not this much to put myself or others down. These are more like an intrusive thoughts. Sometimes I think he's giving me hints but at the same time he might be acting this way because we're friends. I dont know geniuenly what's going on. And my defense mechanism wants to cut these feelings off instantly so I wouldn't disappoint myself later. Our friend talked to him like month or two ago if he likes me. He said that we could be in relationship but he's afraid to risk years of friendship cuz we know eachothers since we were kids and he doesn't want to lose that... And i am too scared to make a first step and even if I'd have to then i don't know which one.
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Tourett syndrome
OCD & Related Behaviors / by anxjulia
Last post
 August 19th, 2025
...See more Hey, im not diagnosed yet but I wanted to ask questions since i read a bit about it and i have similar actions. So... I keep feeling like the urges to say or do anything, i feel like i HAVE to do it. I have this uncomfortable feeling inside of my body to do or say something. At home i don't do that because my mom had told me once that im just lying to get attention so im doing my best to stop but i noticed that my anxiety had grew more. Now im at my bestfriend house for month, i feel comfortable enough to not to stop that but it's really strong now. I keep repeating stuff or moving my head to the sides or slap random things. I remember that as a kid i kept repeating the letters k, kr kp because it just felt right. What do you guys think? Am i just crazy or I should go see a doctor? Im sorry if im texting in a wrong group or if my English is bad, that's not my first language...
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Anxiety and toxic family
Anxiety Support / by anxjulia
Last post
 August 8th, 2025
...See more I have anxiety, im taking 4 meds and two of them are new. Im not used to them yet and my mom is blaming me for that. Everyone screams at me, gives me disappointed looks but im just not able to do anything. My head hurts bad, im forgetting to eat at all, i can't fall asleep but when i do im waking up at 1pm. I just want a little bit of support because at this point i have the worst thoughts and urges...
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