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Are there any other Muslims here who struggle with severe religious anxiety or OCD thoughts related to religion? :(
Religion & Spirituality / by ayesha10
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 June 21st
...See more I genuinely want to strengthen my imaan deeply, which is why this hurts so much. My mind constantly spirals over whether I am sinful, whether my intentions are wrong, whether Allah is disappointed in me, whether certain thoughts make me a bad person/Muslim, whether I am being punished, whether I am doing enough, etc. The thoughts become obsessive and exhausting and it feels like my brain cannot rest. I also grew up in an environment where religion was heavily tied to fear, guilt, shame, and fearmongering rather than emotional safety or peace. A lot of things were framed in terrifying ways growing up, so now my anxiety attaches itself to religion very easily. Instead of feeling comfort, I often feel panic, dread, guilt, and fear that I am failing Allah somehow. My mental health in general is already really bad due to years of trauma, anxiety, depression, emotional abuse, relationship/friendship trauma, and an unstable home environment. I am at a point where I struggle to even do basic things consistently sometimes like showering, eating properly, replying to people, cleaning, or functioning normally. So prayer becomes emotionally complicated too because people assume it is simple laziness when in reality I often feel physically and mentally frozen. I want to pray and I want closeness to Allah. But when you are barely surviving mentally, even getting up feels overwhelming sometimes. Then the guilt of not praying makes the anxiety even worse, which creates an awful cycle. Recently my parents even started thinking I might be cursed or spiritually affected because of how badly I have been struggling mentally and emotionally, which honestly made things worse for me because now my brain obsesses over that too. Sometimes I cannot tell what is genuine faith anymore versus what is anxiety, trauma, fear, or OCD thoughts. I feel very alone in this because a lot of people respond harshly or make the fear worse instead of understanding the psychological side of it. I just wanted to know if any other Muslims experience this and how you cope with it in a healthy way without burning yourself out emotionally.
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