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hello! my name is chey and im glad you found me. i am here for you no matter what. i dont care if it takes hours, days, months, even weeks, i will be here with you every step of the way. i love helping people and listening and giving advice. i have been through alot in my life like death, trauma,anxiety,depression, abuse, and all you can think of. ive had alot of ups and downs in my life, more downs then anything and dont think your alone because like others i have had suicidal feelings and been seconds away from committing. i want to work with you and help you the best i can. if im not available i will be on here as soon as i can to check on things. i am on here everyday for most of the day/night. Im here for all of you, of all ages, age doesn't matter to me. i enjoy sports, keeping my grades up, and all sorts of things. so come chat with me ill be waiting :)

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Trauma Support / by babybunbun34
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August 18th, 2015
...See more so i am a victim of abuse and i am still really struggling with the idea that it actually happened. i have flashbacks, panic attacks, anxiety attack, and a lot more. there are days that i really dont see life worth living anymore. i cant talk to many people because i have severe trust issues. i have really bad anxiety talking to new people and i havent cried in YEARS! my counselor is impressed and shocked. she tries to ease into the fats and details about what has happened to me but i just cant, my heart speeds up i get shaking and upset. she is so sweet about it tho. i just dont know how to feel or how to exactly explain how i feel or whats happening. i know i have seperation anxiety! really bad.... i dont wanna live like this anymore... but ive been to afraid to reach out. my anxiety is worse and worse everyday and no one gets it. i just hope i can hold on long enough to meet the right person that will be able to help me.
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am i still living the hell?
Trauma Support / by babybunbun34
Last post
August 18th, 2015
...See more when i was a little girl probably about maybe 5 years old i met this lovely girl. we became best friends and were like sister joined at the hip. it started as only a couple days out of the week and then when he moved in with them it was everyday, multiple times a day... i wanted to tell someone but he told me i would get in trouble, that it was all my fault. i believed him. it started when i was nine or i think it did thats the earliest i can remember it... i thought i could trust him. and part of me still does. i reported my rape/ molestation in march of this year. i was scared out of my mind. but i couldn't take it back. he was arrested and charged with Rape of a child in the first degree... thats the highest he can be charged... it is now august and after all the interviews and meetings with people there is still no result. i wanna go to trial but at the same time i am terrified to death. he is my family... but at the same time i wanna get justice for what he did to me. im now 16 and the abuse just stopped in march. thats at least 6 years of rape and molestation. thats a lot to handle for a child. i get suicidal thoughts and urges and i have selfed harmed but am 3 weeks clean. there are days that i just wanna be done and die. i have been seconds away from overdosing... but something always stops me. i wonder why i even reported.. because i lost my best friend and her family that i have known for over 11 years. i just dont know what to think, or what to do. im scared that if he is found not guilty that he will do as he told me before i reported... that thing was that i would be his when i was 18, if i didnt live next door anymore he would track me down and make me his. that was so my virginty would be his. but you wanna know something he toke that from me when i was 14... he took my front when i was 14. my back when i was nine. he took everything for me. so i question myslef, Am i still living this hell called life?
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