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Feeling like a lonely loser who has no purpose
Anxiety Support / by bia270
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March 29th, 2021
...See more I am 24 year old doctor. I always had a bad relationship with my father because he never needed me in his life. Recently i realized that my brothers have turned their backs on me too with my mother only one remaining in my corner. D/t these family issues, i have started to distance myself from ppl. I dont make friends anymore and i dont wanna meet up any of my prev. Frnds because i feel like they dont need me and i am just like an acquaintance to them. Everybody i know is either getting married or is already acheiving something in their life. While i am stuck in this boring routine where i dont achieve anything worthwhile. I have always felt like i have to work thrice as hard as ppl in my life to get to achieve my goals and even then i always fall short. Why is my life so much harder than other people. I think i deserve some happiness either in case of family or work. But these things just dont work out for me. I have no one to talk to because i just cant open up about my feelings to anyone not even my mother. And even when i try to open up, people just dismiss me by saying that i have everything, i am just being whiny. So i have just stopped talking to ppl about meaningful stuff altogether. But i need to tell someone that i am so alone and tired of always having to be responsible, cheerful and hardworking. Most of all, i just wanna be needed by someone who can listen to me and underatand me but because of ky depression, i feel like i am in a vicious cycle of avoiding people and the feeling hurt and alone when i dont have anyone to talk to. I need a miracle to get out of this rut that i am stuck in.