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bluefish003
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Is this anxiety? Also, frienships problems-
Anxiety Support / by bluefish003
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 January 9th, 2022
...See more Hm well, everytime I walk arround big spaces (like the cafeteria, ...) In school, alone, I like "feel" people staring at me. I don't know if they're really doing it, but I just get really stressed.. My heart beats fast and my stomach is, like.. Uh, well inconfortable, let's say. I hate it and I just want to be away from that. When I eat alone or walk alone, I feel like that.. --Is that anxiety, what I just said? Also, the next part isn't really about anxiety, but more about my friendship circle, or a part of it anyways-- I'm not always alone. I've got some "friends". One is a year older and the other a year younger. They have other friends. So, when they can (cus our schedules are mixed up), they eat with their friends. I feel like they're always judging me.. If I decide to wear my mask outside, they'll ask me why and do a strange face. If I say something, the older one will always try to correct me when she can. The younger one too, tho. Yesterday, the older wanted to compare my walk to the younger. That's an insecurity I have for being told by 2 different people I walk strange, even tho I don't have any disabilities.... She went in front of us as we walked and started analysing that. I stoped walking, saying I didn't want to be a test subject or whatever and they started arguing saying there was nothing wrong or mean in their intentions. Older girl also said a comment about her observations, like that I was walking a certain way and blabla.... They tried convincing me to agree to getting observed, but then I said I had been told already enough that I walk strangely and to please leave me alone. They looked at each other amused or just finding me real strange, I'm not sure. They weren't taking me seriously, anyways... I started walking away, wishing they weren't examining my walk. They followed and were saying stuff like they just wanted to see, or they never said I walked strangely. Oh- Um, sorry. I know I write a lot- I'm new, btw. Haha I do wonder if anyone'll actually read all this tho lol.
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