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brightTurtle6733
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Never enough
Relationship Stress / by brightTurtle6733
Last post
 August 30th, 2021
...See more was together 20 years ago broke up after several years he cheated so much. 13 yeara apart we reconnect and im broken all over agin. once again im not enough he didnt actually have sex this time but hes messaging severla women and yet i cant get simple affection. let me ignore one call and text he goes off the rails. but i get blown off. he promised no more messages didnt see it was cheating until i lost it on him just to find out hes doing it again... telling them to not count him out and leave him as an option and the way he talks about me is so awful. he makes me out to be crazy evil person. idk why he came back into my life when i wasnt good enough then why bother now. i always get cheated on. im just never ever enough. Just once I wish I meant enough to someone that they didn't always go looking for someone else idk what I'm doing wrong but I get used and I'm left so broken. He left me destroyed 13 years ago and now all over again. He could stayed gone and just left me be.....
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Unlovable unwanted
Relationship Stress / by brightTurtle6733
Last post
 August 19th, 2021
...See more I've been divorced twice now. Recently broke up with the love of my life that has been 20 years of loving him. Dated the first time 20 years ago off and on for about 6 years then parted ways just find ourselves back together for the last year. He cheated on me alot back then and so that has carried over into this time with him always accusing me even though I never cheated on him. He thinks I would to get even for what he did back then. He is now ending things because I moved after searching for 2 months and nit finding anything in the general location we had agreed upon I had to take a place not really ideal for him. I didn't want to be homeless.. He never helped look. He wanted me to give this place up and move in with his mom that he hates so at least he says we would be together. He hasn't even given my place a look much less a chance. In his messages he Goes from marry me to you gave up on me. I feel like he is just manipulating me there. Just recently like two days ago messaged one of my friends that he messed around with while we were apart before trying to get laid after telling me that same day he wanted us to be okay... claims now he knew she would show them to me which I don't believe. I know he isn't good for me as he obviously doesn't respect me yet I can't just let go for some reason. I have always been cheated on and therefore trust is more than an issue. It's at this point I don't think anyone can be satisfied with just me. I'm just unlovable for some reason. I do everything on my own as I have learned I can only depend on me. I don't know what to do anymore I'm more than depressed and at 41 I'm once again starting over....
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