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bubbleVillage19812
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PathStep 21 Compassion hearts33 Forum posts9 Forum upvotes8 Current upvotes8 Age GroupAdult Last activeNovember, 2020 Member sinceOctober 11, 2020
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Heading Towards an End
Relationship Stress / by bubbleVillage19812
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 October 15th, 2020
...See more I'm depressed. I feel hope for a moment and quickly go right back to feeling empty, lonely and hurt. I know my ten year long relationship is heading towards an end and there isn't much I can do to stop it, and maybe I don't want to, maybe its time to end it. When it first began it felt so perfect, as always rose colored glasses I suppose, so maybe the perfection I felt is not as unique as I once thought it was. Fast forward this relationship has major committment issues, and I am losing hope. I can only see the darkness. I used to be able to turn to him but now I can't. Our issues shut him down. I can't bring it up or he goes silent. I feel like I have to wear tape over my mouth. He isn't cruel. He doesn't have ill intention but I also don't think he is consciously aware of the way he responds when our issues arise. I don't expect a relationship to stay on that honeymoon high, but it is awfully eye-opening when you start to feel like the person you thought would never become what you feared becomes what you feared, and when I say feared I mean that they could be someone who could hurt you emotionally. I feel like I thought his hands were safe enough to place my heart into, but I was wrong. Where is the man who would listen, who gave me the time of day, who found adventures with me, who I felt emotionally safe with? I thought he was sure about me, but now he isn't? Wow. Did he ever feel sure about me? Its been 10 years? And if he knows I'm not enough then why not say goodbye
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