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frankHickory2217
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I'm a 30 year old kissless virgin and feel like I'm doomed to die alone.
Relationship Stress / by frankHickory2217
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 May 3rd, 2021
...See more I have a ton of baggage. I mean a TON. But rather than get into all the details of my childhood, I'll just lay out the most immediate problems. I'm 30 years old I'm morbidly obese I still live with my mother I have a mediocre job making an unlivable wage I have no formal education I've never been in any kind of romantic relationship I'm in debt This all results in an extreme lack of self-esteem, absolutely zero confidence, and crippling loneliness/depression. My greatest fear is that I'll die alone, and I feel like time is running out for me to turn my life around. I've lost weight. I was over 400 pounds, and I'm not down below 350, but the extremely slow progress has me wishing I could grab a knife and just carve the fat off of me. I'm disgusted by my body. I'm embarrassed by my financial situation. I hate myself for allowing myself to get this way. I have a pretty good idea of what has caused this, and it goes all the way back to my early childhood. I know I need therapy... but with my debt and low income, I can't afford it. I feel hopeless. I crave intimacy, but I have nothing to offer anyone in return, and feel like I will never find anyone who loves me. This makes me so insecure that I avoid any and every chance to even try to form a relationship with anyone. Because what woman wants a broke fat man who lives with his mom?
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