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generousStrings9509
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Triggering phobias
Anxiety Support / by generousStrings9509
Last post
 July 26th, 2021
...See more Hi guys, I basically have a phobia of needles. Like the mention of them freaks me out. And everyone around me constantly mentioning the COVID vaccine and how I will need to take it, makes me shut down, trying not to freak out in-front of them, cause they won’t know how to react. As well as trying to hold my tongue because I know no matter what I say trying to “convince” them I’m not just a scaredy-cat, infuriates me, and they laugh about it “can she even do it?” ha ha ha. I honestly feel so defeated, anxious and tired. I’m basically staying over at my aunts for the night. And the only person who even knows/believes I have anxiety is my mom, who I can’t talk to cause she’s asleep. I just got up and played it like I need the bathroom, hid outside, and I think I’m locked out. But I can’t seem to bring myself to care, I want to be alone, I hope they leave me alone.
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Trypanophobia/ Fear of needles
Anxiety Support / by generousStrings9509
Last post
 September 13th, 2021
...See more I have a major fear of needles, I have no idea when this phobia started. But all I know is being afraid of them ever since I could remember. Many issues come from this, as I used to get sick a lot needing to go to the hospital quite often, to get vaccinated or my blood being drawn, which I really need to do for allergies. And so far I have somehow avoided them all. Now the COVID vaccine is something I cannot avoid. My family (extended) have tried to comfort me in many ways, however I don’t think they understand that I know how irrational my thoughts are, and that I’m not afraid of what’s in the vaccine, just of the needle. How do I explain to them that I don’t even understand why I panic, or cry??? They told me how much I doesn’t hurt, and that it’s quick and only two doses, I really understand I really really do, but I can’t think about it the way they do. I have no idea why I freak out or why I get dizzy hearing people talk about it. Or why my heart starts beating and get really upset about this… they keep telling me that I’m being overly dramatic and that I fuel my brain into believing that I’m scared of needles, or that I freak my own self out, but I can’t just tell my brain to not be dramatic, they don’t think I’ve tried that? I can’t explain to them that it feels out of my control, if they keep telling me that I’m making this up. I couldn’t stay in the room so I walked out, I’m always quite lenient with them, but I walked out today. I hate when I talk about it, and they say I talk about it all the time, about how I feel dizzy or start crying, or feel nauseous about it. Honestly it just hurts, because I know my family would rather ridicule than understand. I feel embarrassed and made fun of, because how am I supposed to control something that I feel so afraid of?
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18th Birthday blues
Anxiety Support / by generousStrings9509
Last post
 June 25th, 2021
...See more Hi guys today is my birthday, All day I couldn’t help but feel it was a bittersweet occasion. I can’t seem to figure out why I feel upset, or choked up about turning 18. I read articles online, and nothing seems to relate to how I’m feeling about this. It’s just deep sadness, it might have to do with being anxious about the future, but that doesn’t seem to be the worry. I just feel the overwhelming need to cry, and can’t explain my feelings to anyone. Ugh, im getting frustrated with myself which isn’t helping. However im taking it hour by hour. I’ll try to be patient with myself/ distracting myself by reading. Thank you for reading my confused feelings.
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