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In love with a adult cam girl & know I've been taken for a ride
Addiction Support / by gentle6
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 February 19th, 2018
...See more Hi all who may read this. First thing I want to say is that I am so drained of emotion & struggles with this that it is going to be hard for me to express the level of involvement I have had with one of adult cam lady from certain site that clearly I shall not name. Like many of the millions of guys, one evening whilst looking at adult videos an advert caught my eye. Intrigued I checked in & imediately got hooked. I became a member & paid to use this site like any other. One thing has to be clear, those cam sites sell themselves for exactly what it is, personal one-on-one real life sexual fantasies on your screen. The ladies who choose to do this are clearly sensual, beautiful & know that guys are gonna pay to enjoy gettin turned on and more. At the same time, they are real life people who are doing it for whatever personal reasons, they have worries, bills etc, but come time when they are online, is all about keeping the members coming back. I became such a member to one in particular and we did develop some kinda of "relationship", or so it seemed. I am not gonna lie, she is stunning, so sensual and drives my wildest dreams. As I became more and more a member and "friend" we connected privately, whereby I lavished certain things to her. Now I know what many may think at this point, scammer, like you read so much about these "cam girls" and while there are so many things that were revealed to me by the very nature of our private interaction outside the site, we have even met, though that seemed more awkward than geniune sparks..I keep getting hooked by her promises & my own belief that eventually she will realise just what she has done to cause me so my hurt...I have loved & cherished her but for the most it seems so all one way from me to her, though there has been enough times, when she has seemed truly geniune to me. But a few colosal lies and things I found out, caused us to have huge verbal confrontations over social media things like skype etc...to the point where she completely blocked & blanked me. How can one be so after lavishing such admire & the like. Now we are seemingly OK again, but just this week she asked me to get sth again & for a day where we will meet & even spend a night in hotel, though in separate rooms. I don't know what to think, cos the only reason I can still join her where she now works is cos I be chance heard a certain ping whilst in her room at her old site where she has now closed her account. Is like if I hadn't of heard that ping & instinctively knew where to look and sure enough find her new, she would have disappeared & I would probably never have seen her again. Can you imagine how that feels after all I have shared with her, it makes me think, would she have contacted me to "arrange" this day cos i truly don't think so. I wanna get away from her in truth, but my heart & passion of five years is too much & I don't know how.....
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