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hhhhhh04
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PathStep 11 Compassion hearts74 Forum posts14 Forum upvotes43 Current upvotes43 Age GroupAdult Last activeSeptember, 2026 Member sinceMarch 9, 2026
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Not exactly self harm I’m not sure where to ask this
Self-Harm Recovery / by hhhhhh04
Last post
 August 9th
...See more I’ve never physically hurt myself on purpose, but sometimes when I’m hating myself too much I imagine hurting myself even though I know I would be too scared to actually do that. Recently the things I’ve been imagining have become more detailed it’s confusing. I’ve heard of passive suicidal ideation but never the self harm equivalent of that, and I’ve never heard of anyone experiencing the same thing I am. Idk why I do this and I don’t know how to stop. I don’t know if I’d be able to tell anyone in real life about this.
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Anger issues
Self-Esteem / by hhhhhh04
Last post
 August 25th
...See more How do I stop getting angry so quickly. I hate the way I react to things but it’s like I can’t control it at all in the moment. I want to stop feeling ashamed of myself and be able to express my emotions and commit properly. Not being able to has made me feel really bad about myself
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Feeling lonely
Journals & Diaries / by hhhhhh04
Last post
 May 15th
...See more I can’t talk to anyone about the things bothering me cause a lot if it needs context but telling my friends / sister the context would involve telling them of other people’s things that they want to keep quiet (nothing weird just plans for the future's they had/have) I’m tired I don’t want to feel
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Struggling to eat
Healthy Living / by hhhhhh04
Last post
 May 3rd
...See more Not sure if this is the right forum but I’ve always struggled to eat pretty much my whole life. That, and having a somewhat high metabolism means I’m very skinny. I don’t have an eating disorder or any known medical condition that causes loss of appetite I’ve always just not enjoyed eating much. In the past year I started getting hungry more and eating more, but even then I didn’t gain weight. After getting sick I’ve both lost more weight and lost the appetite I had for awhile. Everyone keeps telling me to just eat but I physically can’t. Even the thought of eating makes me exhausted or nauseous. Sometimes I’ll feel hungry but when I start eating I’ll become nauseous and struggle to stomach the food. I don’t know why I’m like this and everyone just acting like it’s not a big struggle for me or anything and making constant remarks about my body has made me both insecure and sick of everything. The more people say things like that the less I want to eat. The comments aren’t even out of spite or bad intentions it’s just people showing their care in an unopenminded and insensitive way I guess. I do want to gain weight and actually have my clothes fit and feel good about myself for myself but nothing has really helped, and I feel like there isn’t much about gaining weight on the internet compared to losing weight
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Feeling like I messed up all the time
Self-Esteem / by hhhhhh04
Last post
 May 2nd
...See more I don’t know why but usually even the smallest hung out of my comfort zone that doesn’t go entirely smoothly makes me spiral into self hate and makes me feel bad for awhile. The smallest social interaction usually with someone I’m not familiar with , or a bad interaction with someone familiar leaves me feeling so horrible. Usually cause I didn’t say enough or I wasn’t sociable enough or I misworded things it just makes me feel so incompetent. I know being shy isn’t necessarily bad but I feel like I’m scared of people to the point that it’s unhealthy and pathetic and I feel so incapable and incompetent. I hate that I’m often dependent on others especially in social situations I know pushing myself out of my comfort zone and making small mistakes is what will help me overcome this but the way I feel after a little blunder makes me hesitant to keep going and try again
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Feeling unfulfilled
Journals & Diaries / by hhhhhh04
Last post
 April 1st
...See more Ive got a break from my studies and have some time in between whatever it is that I chose to pursue after this. I thought id enjoy getting a break and I did at first but now theres just too much free time. Ive been unproductive and im not getting anything done despite having more time to
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Some things Ive learned i need to do to build my self esteem
Self-Esteem / by hhhhhh04
Last post
 April 1st
...See more Ive been reading about and reflecting on my self esteem, and how i can improve. Im not sure how to do anything of this but I thought making a list might help. * Learn how to forgive myself * Respect myself * Do more things that I enjoy doing (art, learning, reading, puzzles, baking) * Change my mindset (less judgemental of myself and others, more positive) * Work on my self ( improve communication, control temper, manage emotions) * Accept the things i cant change * Stop overthinking
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Forgiveness
Journals & Diaries / by hhhhhh04
Last post
 March 29th
...See more I dont know how to forgive myself and others. It might look like ive moved on sometimes but usually its just me burying the emotions and choosing to forget what happened than genuinely forgiving things. As a result of this, when im reminded of the things ive "forgiven", I feel the emotions I felt when it happened all over again. It might be unhealthy but I dont want to bring up the issues that happened with other people again, I just want to let go of it from my mind. As for forgiving myself, I beat myself up over everything, from little things that dont even matter to big mistakes. When im reminded of them again, I fall into this cycle of self hate.its exhausting and I want it to stop
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