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impartialTiger7696
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I knew it would happen eventually...
Trauma Support / by impartialTiger7696
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 October 14th, 2019
...See more In September it will have been 2 years since I was raped... I decided to not press charges due to his families afilations with a gang and I worried about my families safety... one of my child hood friends little brother raped me and I just walked away and now Im the one with the huge scares that I have to carry around... since this happened I havent been out to the store by myself, Ive missed loads of work and have had to change jobs.... I finally stated to feel like I was handling things and becoming me again and decided I could go to the store and get my medication.... huge mistake!!!! I just happened to look over to see my friend standing there starring at me... I looked down and away so fast that I couldnt even process what was happening and I just ran out of the store..... and I havent been the same since... Ive been super depressed and just dont know how to out of this funk... my husband keeps telling me to be positive and be happy and I just feel like I am right back where I was right after it happened.... lost.... and wishing that I never went to the store alone.... I mean I knew this day would come eventually but I never expected it to happen so soon and I thought I would be more prepared for it and I wasnt!
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Recovery is the hardest part!
Trauma Support / by impartialTiger7696
Last post
 February 8th, 2019
...See more I remember wanting shows like law and order special victims unit or CSI growing up and I used to say I could never imagine what it would be like to be in their shoes...well I can now say I wish I never found out. this year has been the roughest year of my life!! My husband brother died from a very tragic accident and i wanted to do something fun to cheer him up we hadnt been to a party in a very long time and I wanted him to feel at ease and not think about the loss he had just suffered.... turns out that would end up being my dumbest decision of my life. My husband wasnt feeling well and I wanted to stay at the party catch up with old friends hang out drink have a good time. Well I drank more then I should have and was raped... my childhood friends little brother raped me because he always had a crush on me... i havent been the same since then I think everyday about how I could have prevented it what I should have done. Its been about a year and I still struggle to get out of bed just to go to work, I still struggle with going to the store alone, I still struggle with going out and being in social situations. But I am thankful for my husband who helps me as much as he can when I know he is suffering from this and the loss of his brother. We try not to talk about what happened just cause it he feels like its his fault and I disagree... its hard to bottle up how Im feeling and put on a fake smile for all my friends and family when really I just want to break down and cry!
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