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intellectualLion484
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I wish I could somewhere where no one knows me
Depression Support / by intellectualLion484
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 April 8th, 2020
...See more I regret the life I have. I know Im not supposed to and I know that there are people who have it worse than me and who would find my life amazing; but I feel like it isnt for me. I feel like no one around me listens and just expects me to go along with what they want. I feel like I dont know how to express myself and I keep things bottled up and then when I finally burst- no one takes it serious cause it all just comes out wrong. i wish sometimes that I could just go somewhere alone where no one knows me and just completely start over
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Anxiety Support / by intellectualLion484
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 August 6th, 2018
...See more When I was about 11 something happened in my life that caused me to have a non stop panic attack for months. After that I started having them here and there mostly at night preventing me from sleeping. It then got to a point where they stopped. Recently though they have started up again but have only gotten worse to the point where they are starting to interfere with my life. Theyve been happening during the day and the signs have gotten worse. Im started to feel dizzy or lightheaded and like everything is closing in on me. I can get by and pretend to be fine when Im around others but on the inside Im absolutely terrified. Luckily they only seem to last about 30 mins (the physical feelings at least). But the terror of it happening again takes hours to go away. The last time took two days. Im starting to think I may need to see a doctor and maybe a professional therapist as I dont know what to do anymore. I almost miss my old panic attacks at this point.
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Rose colored girl
Depression Support / by intellectualLion484
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 June 11th, 2018
...See more i feel like Im only ever on here when my life feels like its crumbling down around me. Every few months I manage to convince my self that my life is great and that the pieces are finally coming together and I adopt this new lease on life. Like I have on these rose colored glasses. And then out of nowhere its like I take them off and dont recognize this life Ive made anymore. I dont feel like Im living my life. I feel like everyone around me if making the decisions and Im just going along with them. And I can convince myself for a while that Im happy and then out of nowhere I realize that Im not. Im not good with my emotions and tend to lash out when I get in one of tese phases, so everyone ignores it and acts like its just stress and they dont take me serious. Hell i straight up said last night I wasnt happy and wanted things to change, and instead of listening they just continued watching tv. I just wish wish I could start over. Move somewhere no one knows me and reinvent myself but I just cant seem to bring myself to do it. I cant seem to bring myself to do anything.
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Too sensitive
Anxiety Support / by intellectualLion484
Last post
 February 25th, 2018
...See more Sometimes i hang on to things and i don
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