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ipoopcats
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PathStep 49 Compassion hearts934 Forum posts220 Forum upvotes730 Current upvotes730 Age GroupAdult Last activeSeptember, 2026 Member sinceFebruary 22, 2024
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a young and angry woman healing from traumas to navigate the struggles of life through empathy and advocacy. i also yap a lot (^ヮ^) 


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indoctrination (long read)
Religion & Spirituality / by ipoopcats
Last post
 March 5th
...See more i remember about 8 years ago, my religious teacher made me speak in front of the class about how one could stop their porn addiction. at that age i was fairly new to the concept of porn, let alone understanding how one could be addicted. i couldn't really come up with an answer so i gave generic responses like "turn on safe search" or "just don't search up porn". unfortunately my answers wasn't what my teacher had hoped, and she kept pressuring to get a different answer out of me. the questions turned a bit aggressive and direct "if YOU were addicted what would YOU do". i didn't know what to say. answering this question in first person like i was the one addicted made me super uncomfortable. mind u i was 13.  eventually she gave up pressing after getting no answers out of me. i don't remember much, just the look on my classmates faces filled with confusion. looking back i realised how distressing that situation was for younger me. i think that was the start of my religious trauma. fast forward today i'm in my 20's. the nightmares aren't over. my father which i'm sure has some sort of superiority complex, would insert religion into everything. Motivated Reasoning is what psychology calls it, when someone has a pre-determined conclusion and they work backward to find "evidence" in the real world to support it. it was a dogma for sure. "the devil got to you" was what he once said to my mother when she failed to stop my baby brother from crying. i dont know why it took me so long to process that i had this trauma. for a long time i forced to present myself as "religious" because i was simply in denial about my own identity. an identity that was viewed as sinful when the scriptures did not make sense to me. if i don't pray i would go to ***. if i don't get married society won't respect me. if i don't dress modestly i'm a wh0re. if i leave home i would be a disgrace to my family. if i question the misogyny in the teachings... well, apparently it's true and i just had to accept it. indoctrination. there is no room for me to be myself. everyday i feel like i'm an imposter hiding amongst everyone. they question about my faith but never my feelings. was i ever human to begin with? was i programmed into this world to adhere to some code only to realize i'm full of bugs? can i even be fixed? maybe i can't be fixed. maybe there are no bugs. or maybe i'm the bug itself.  oh wait that's right. i'm not allowed to question. indoctrination.
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to those who write vent posts
General Support / by ipoopcats
Last post
 January 6th
...See more i just wanted to give tips to people who want to share their stories or write vent posts.  1. write in paragraphs it can be hard for others to read your posts if u do not section your story in paragraphs. you can start off by an introduction or recollection, followed by the build up, the problem, and lastly a conclusion. ofc you don't have to follow in this order, but just to make it easier for the readers, separate the parts according to the topic of focus. 2. use commas and periods no one has to be grammatically exact when posting their vents, but i've seen some that don't make use of periods and commas. i saw someone writing a whole paragraph without any punctuations and it makes it incredibly hard to read. i love responding and giving reassurance to vent posts. i hope these tips can help people like me read your posts more effectively. ❤️
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getting into crystals
Religion & Spirituality / by ipoopcats
Last post
 December 27th, 2025
...See more recently i've been interested in learning chakras and crystals. today i just bought my first ever set of crystals and i held them individually to sense what kind of energy i'm getting.  citrine was by far the most heavy when it comes to energy for me. i've never in my life felt this kind of energy coming from an inanimate object. it was pretty scary at first but because this was a shocking experience my curiosity kept telling me to hold it again and again. by the 3rd time i actually felt so drained and i almost threw up.  i tried searching for answers about my solar plexus and why citrine affected me that way. i found that it was a way of telling me that i that i've been depressed and upset for so long and that would be true. i'm not sure how i can use this for healing if this hurts me tho.
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to all listeners
General Support / by ipoopcats
Last post
 December 21st, 2025
...See more listeners please normalize reading the topic of discussion and description before taking anyone in to chat. i find it so annoying when i find out a listener took me in without reading the topic. "what do u want to talk about today?" i've already mentioned it in the description 🙃 especially when it's about a very specific issue i would like someone with experience or understanding to talk to me. i also find that a lot of listeners take so long to reply or go on red after starting a conversation. why would u talk to me if u are busy? i dont want to wait 5 minutes for each response just for u to quiet on me all of a sudden. what a waste of time
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get well soon! @Irada961
General Support / by ipoopcats
Last post
 January 4th
...See more everyone tag @Irada961 and wish her to get well soon! shes a caring listener who's recently been in an accident and broke her leg, so let's all hope and pray she can quickly heal from this ❤️
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reminder to myself
Journals & Diaries / by ipoopcats
Last post
 December 11th, 2025
...See more u need to get out of this. u need to earn money and leave. live the life that you've always dreamed of. stop dreading about how poorly your family has screwed u over and start being resilient. "if someone pushes u into a pool and u start to drown, do u plot on how ur gonna get ur revenge when ur drowning? or do u struggle to get urself out and live?" stop envying other's success and post that content. be consistent. build ur audience. start exercising. learn how to make money. learn. learn. learn.
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money is power
General Support / by ipoopcats
Last post
 December 11th, 2025
...See more people who say money dont buy happiness are lying. money gives u freedom money gives u power. especially as a woman, having money can save u from toxic relationships, toxic jobs, toxic family. it gives u an option to leave.  as someone who doesn't earn much i dream of being financially independent so i can finally walk away from situations that bring me down and not have to lower my standards.  if ur reading i hope u will be blessed with lots of money. 
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