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lavenderCranberry120
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Anxiety Support / by lavenderCranberry120
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 May 2nd, 2022
...See more I’m 25 f. I’ve been having so much trauma come up and I know that’s a sign that I’m on the right path. But I make bad decisions. I also think everyone is out to spite me. I’ve only been hurt by literally everyone in my life. Because I make bad decisions, I ask for help and then people use what I did against me. I have no self esteem. Relationships: guys always treated me bad. Before I started dating, my friends always made fun of me. I stuck with people as low as me though because I judged others. I have a slight learning disability. Being with miserable people makes me miserable but I’m not well enough to be with happy people and usually the happy people are too happy and don’t want to hang out with a sad person. I have goals and dreams but I either let people dictate me because that’s what my parents did. Yelling and screaming all the time. I think they’re mentally I’ll but they also make fun of people with mental illness. My mom is so ditzy. My dad thinks he’s the smartest person on the planet. I’m sure both of them have done things to hurt me and it feels like on purpose. They tell me they’re good people but I don’t believe it. My friend I live with from college also has no friends and she’s ungrateful and a slob and I moved in with her to go back to school but I hate that she’s so ghetto. She’s lazy too and I don’t want to spend so much on an apartment. I feel like she’s making me spend more money than I need to and then she makes me feel bad for not spending money. She tries to bring me down and it’s so annoying even being around someone like that. I can feel my brain shrinking honestly. I’m stuck. I can’t live with her or at home. I need to get through a 10 month program before I can move when I plan on moving out of state away from all this bs. I want to be fully happy on my own no bs. It’s been too long, I want it so bad but the waiting to be happy is KILLING me.
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