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lavenderKiwi2048
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Depression Support / by lavenderKiwi2048
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 June 3rd, 2021
...See more I’ve recently found myself in a deep depression that i haven’t been able to pull myself out of. My grades have slipped and i am in danger of not graduating because of my lack of competition of my assignments. Mentally I’m so drained and i cry every night until like 4 in the morning because I’m just so exhausting with life and it hasn’t even really begun. I got into my dream school and i have to decline my offer because of the financial aid. My parents do not want to help me and refuse to sign for my loan, which they have to because i have virtually no credit. My mom is upset that i am not happy to graduate even though it means nothing to me anymore because i can’t do anything that is important to me. She acts like it’s an accomplishment for her to because she said she “supported me emotionally”, even though she was never there when i asked for help on assignments and refused to believe me and only called me lazy when i told her that i was having difficulty in school. I had terrible Adhd which was diagnosed, so now I’m just a wreck and i resent my mom.
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The path to recovery as a child
Alcohol & Drug Addiction Support / by lavenderKiwi2048
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 December 8th, 2020
...See more Hello! Ive never posted here before, but times are tough rn and i guess i just need a space to vent so i don't relapse. I guess to start off i should let you know how i got to where i am today, I'm currently 17 and have abused drugs since i was about 13-14. I have not been sober for a significant amount of time at any point within these last couple of years, but yk I'm working on it now. My addiction stemmed from a depression i suffered after a period of heavy verbal and emotional abuse by someone who was addicted. I had no one to talk to because this person was a close family member and those around me saw what was happening and did nothing. I discovered that drugs allowed me to escape my emotions for the time that i was passed out which also meant that i also wasn't enduring that abuse because i was asleep. It got so bad to the point that at 14 i was taking around 4-5 vicodin a day after school until i almost suffered an overdose, but from that day on i have tried to stay away from those. I never really realized that it was a problem, that this was in fact drug abuse, because i always felt like it was in my control. Now that I'm almost an adult i see that it is an issue and i just want to feel better before i go off to college on my own. As much as i hate my current life I'm happy to be here and since those times i have found a support system, my bestfriend. It's hard to talk about these things with them though because i know they don't understand, so i hope someone sees this
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