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lavenderNest425
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PathStep 27 Compassion hearts314 Forum posts23 Forum upvotes79 Current upvotes79 Age GroupAdult Last activeApril, 2026 Member sinceJune 10, 2025
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I am a mother, teacher and friend. I try to be kind and compassionate to everyone. I have a big heart and a lot of love. I want to spread positivity and love so others can feel content in their life. We are all in this life together!

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The journey in the end hopefully will be worth it!
General Support / by lavenderNest425
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 June 19th, 2025
...See more Separated from someone I never wanted to be. Hurt from the lies and infidelity. Sometimes I have so much confidence in myself to carry on and other times I feel heavy and wrong. I know I do not deserve the choices he is making. The loneliness is real and hurtful. I feel there are still continuous lies to try to save face but it’s really doing more damage and furthering me along. I feel so bad for him. I feel so sad for him. I too feel so hurt by him. All a huge conundrum. I know what I must do to stop the cycle or to break away from pin I do not deserve. Why is it so hard to be so final about things?
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Resurfacing Pain
General Support / by lavenderNest425
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 June 17th, 2025
...See more Hello all! I reached out to my husband because he was in charge of a bill that needs paid. Now he hasn’t stopped and it’s been an emotional roller coaster! I am devastated and having panic attacks all over again! He is a mess and missing me terribly and not taking the separation very well. I just know if I give in, all the crap starts again. I do not want to live like that. My heart aches so much. Even though he got us here, I still hurt listening to how much he is hurting. Trying to stay above water. Things we had together as a couple are not ours anymore. I can’t play the games we shared together alone. Now he has a lot of friends to take my spot. It hurts really bad going through all of this and it feels like nothing is ours anymore :( Obviously we are separated and needs to be but it does not mean pain and panic attacks will stop. I have had a major attack today. I wish I could fast forward through all of this. I know though that in order to learn a life lesson I must endure every bit of it.
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Sleepy and weepy!
Newbie Hub / by lavenderNest425
Last post
 June 16th, 2025
...See more Today has been a bit of a rough day! Being heartbroken is taking its toll for sure. I haven’t slept in days. I lay in bed awake and aware. I feel overly exhausted . I want to sleep so badly! How have you all found a way to sleep?!? I’ve barely eaten. Sad reality is I feel I am the only one a mess while he is living his well his double life which I guess now is his life. Laughing and loved by many! I know it’s internet fake bull crap but still. I hurt incredibly deep. I am on waves and waves of ups and downs. Being alone in my home is eating at me.
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A hint of hope...
Newbie Hub / by lavenderNest425
Last post
 June 13th, 2025
...See more Today I woke up with a little hope. I am not sure why or how this changed. I am remembering I am a person with feelings. I have people who love and support me. I need to let them in to help and allow them to be privy to what is happening in my life. It is part of my journey and healing process. The fear of telling your loved ones what is really happening behind the scenes can look very scary. I often questioned why I am scared to start talking. I cannot come up with the full answer but one I have noticed is you do not want them to hurt as well. Another that makes sense is fear of judgement. If your loved ones love you they will support you. I have allowed two members of my family know of my hurt and pain. I miss my husband but I am very hurt by his actions. I tell myself that I am the master of my own fate, while he is his. I am also trying to distance myself and not allow him to know what I am doing and feeling in life. I am gaining control over my life and trying to let him live his. This has been one of the hardest things I have had to do, but once you can start to walk and stop looking over your shoulder so much, it can make things a little easier each day!
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