The journey in the end hopefully will be worth it!
Separated from someone I never wanted to be. Hurt from the lies and infidelity. Sometimes I have so much confidence in myself to carry on and other times I feel heavy and wrong. I know I do not deserve the choices he is making. The loneliness is real and hurtful. I feel there are still continuous lies to try to save face but it’s really doing more damage and furthering me along. I feel so bad for him. I feel so sad for him. I too feel so hurt by him. All a huge conundrum. I know what I must do to stop the cycle or to break away from pin I do not deserve. Why is it so hard to be so final about things?
@lavenderNest425 Hello Nest, and thank you for sharing this. You've been through a lot with your ex, and I can hear the hurt in your post - bitter feelings of betrayal, resentment, as well as sadness for you and for your ex. Those are weighty feelings to carry, and I can see why there are days you describe yourself as feeling heavy. To address your question: it's hard to be final about things when we feel there's still unfinished business, or unresolved issues. I do however see an oppositional pull from the other side of you that feels confident and strong, and wants to move beyond this. I'm hoping you can harness those competent, capable feelings of drive; you have the support of this community as you do so. I've linked below to two self help guides that may help: one on getting unstuck, the other on forgiveness which looks at healing those hurts.
https://www.7cups.com/getting-unstuck/
https://www.7cups.com/forgiveness/
