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littleCat4798
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trans ftm vent
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by littleCat4798
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...See more I just want to be happy. I just want access to things that will help me hate my body less. I just want to be able to enjoy my days. Every single day it’s all I can think about. I want to be a boy so bad. It aches. I don’t know how else to describe it but an all consuming ache.
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Trans ftm rant ig
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by littleCat4798
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 3 days ago
...See more This is going to be a very long rant *** I honestly hate labels. I don’t even like calling myself trans. I don’t feel trans. Idk if that makes any sense. I just feel like myself. I like girls and boys and nonbinary people but I don’t call myself pansexual or anything. I don’t even like calling myself queer. I’m just a human being who likes other human beings. It really bothers me. Labels. I don’t know why. They help other people, so why do they make me want to rip my skin off (figuratively). I hate the concept of coming out. It’s stupid imo. Why is this minescule part of my life such a big *** deal to everyone else? It’s actually none of your *** business. But it’s harder to be angry when it’s about being ‘trans’ because it affects everyday life. Every time someone would address me it’s relevant. I wish it wasn’t. I wish it was background noise. I want being queer to be boring. I want it to be irrelevant background noise. I want it to be the least interesting thing about me. I wish being queer was so normal nobody gave a fat ***. I feel so stagnant. I’m 16. I can’t do ***. I cannot make my own choices in regards to my health/hormones. I’m lucky that I think my mother would be okay with me ‘being trans’ but not transitioning medically. My brain isn’t fully developed so I can’t make those decisions for myself. But that means I’m stuck. I can’t do anything and I can’t do anything about it. I end up sleeping. I sleep so much. Because in my dreams I have the body of a boy. In my dreams it doesn’t hurt so bad. In my dreams I’m not stuck. I sleep too much. Does anyone else understand the pain of this? Probably. I just feel like someone is prying open my ribcage and tearing me apart and at the same I’m being squeezed down so compact. It’s weird. I have a real hatred for being trans. Not because being trans is bad. But because it feels bad. Not every day is like today. But some days are bad, and all I can think about is how much I need out of my own skin. Most days I just try not to think about it.
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