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Not sure how to be a person in society..
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 May 4th, 2025
...See more I lost my job 2 years ago and have been unemployed and living at home ever since.. i've experienced a lot of trauma in my life (starting long before i lost that job) & these last few years i've been distancing myself further and further from society.. my only friends stopped talking to me, my family stopped talking to me (even tho we live together), and now i'm afraid to step foot outside.. i don't know how i'm ever gonna get a job again.. i wake up everyday in so much fear that this is going to be the rest of my life.. that i'm doomed to just be stuck here.. i don't even leave my bedroom anymore other than for food/bathroom and occasionally showering.. idk how i managed to let my life get this pathetic but i don't know how to get back.. the only person i talk to is my partner but we're long distance & they live in a state very far from me.. we've never even met in person.. we met online and they understand and go thru similar.. so i have them, but at the same time i just.. idk.. i love them, but i still feel like such a failure and often feel like i'm never actually going to get to meet up with them and that this is just all fantasy to pass the time.. feeling very ashamed & very pathetic/vulnerable in this moment.. is there anything left for me or have i thrown everything away..
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