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modestLion3493
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Loneliness in times of crisis
Depression Support / by modestLion3493
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 August 13th, 2025
...See more I won’t make this long. Found out yesterday that a friend is in palliative care. He is a cancer survivor and is no longer in remission. I communicated with his partner and expressed my availability for support. I tried to talk about my feelings regarding loss and death with my minuscule support network but everyone blew me off. My feelings of loneliness and sadness have spiraled out of control.
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Get busy living or get busy dying
Depression Support / by modestLion3493
Last post
 November 8th, 2023
...See more I feel like this Shawshank Redemption quote fits me anymore. Except I’m at a place where I feel I’m getting ready to die. I see no hope on the horizon. I’ve lost 95% of my friends (they no longer want to deal with a depressed person). I’m disabled and at home all the time. I see no one. Things keep getting worse. I no longer trust people to help only to hurt me. My one last connection with society has been my cousin. We’ve been able to chat several times per week but it’s a toxic relationship. I need to put up with her extreme attitudes and beliefs and commiserate with her that she suffers more than anyone else on the planet. She and her family have hurt me enough. Her son even made a YouTube video about me and said “Despite the fact that he’s gay and a Buddhist he could be a good Christian.” And he thought I wouldn’t be insulted by that. I send my cousin funny video clips from *** to help her get her mind off her troubles. The last innocent one I sent generated a 200 word rant about how all groups of women are *** and how feminism is evil. I had no idea where this rant came from. Now im at a place where I have to break off this connection. I feel very alone. Im sorry this is so long. If anyone reads this entire thing I appreciate your time.
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