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nihilisticpainter
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I'm Jade and I am currently 16 years old.
There's really nothing special about me.

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It’s over
Depression Support / by nihilisticpainter
Last post
 January 20th, 2023
...See more i lost everything i had and that included my friends. i was doing so well with what i was doing, make videos and be a good role model for people online but it all ended when i got cancelled in 2022 of August. i lost my pride, friends and my followers. i let them all down and i feel alone. i talk to nobody and i’ve been getting harassed for 5 months straight by a group of people and i just don’t know if i can hold on anymore. i feel horrible about what i did but i won’t go into detail of what it was. just know i was a bad person and i isolated myself from people to get better and now i feel horible about it and now karma got me for what i did. i miss my friends and i’m so alone. i feel like utter shvt :(
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I've been feeling a bit- bad bad
Personality Disorders Support / by nihilisticpainter
Last post
 September 21st, 2022
...See more well, I guess, I don't know how to start this. Hi. I'm Jade and I have BPD lol- surprising, I know. Ive been feeling a bit- off. I normally react to things that upset me with this explosive impulsive bad attitude but this isn't the case for my current situation. I got cancelled basically for stuff I don't remember nor couldn't control. I had a social media following of 100K and I hurt a lot of people and it got out there that I was doing it and I'm happy that happened. It was getting out of hand, repetitive, if you will. I knew I was evil or sick, I believe I'm sick. I just- it hurt me a lot, my own "friends" did this to "help me" but they haven't helped me at all. They did it and shunned me and they make fun of me for stuff I can't control. I made sure they knew of it as well, but, dude. I just I don't know how I feel. It's an empty feeling, but a lot at the same time. I'm okay but I'm not?? I don't know man. Its been two weeks since it came out but most people say they understand and only want me to get help, but the rest just want to shame me for this disorder I can't control. I'm not trying to "blame" it on my disorder, but, I'm also a victim to this thing I was dealt with. I don't know man. I'm in the wrong I know, but idk
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