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peachWillow47
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Doctor referal for mental health
General Support / by peachWillow47
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 February 22nd, 2015
...See more I've struggled with various mental health issues for around 2+ years now. (self harm, intimacy issues due to bad experiences, depresison, anxious feelings, low confidence... etc). However, recently its all got so hard to manage. I cant function, cry a lot, cant focus on anything, feel disconnected and selfharm urges are creeping back too, along with passive suicidal thoughts... Anywayy... i have gone to the doctors in desperation (mainstream services were never too popular with my family) and have been urgently referred to CAMHS (Child and adolecant mental health services). Im so scared and honestly freaking out about this whole process. i feel so out of control and have no idea how long the waiting list for this referral will be. :( Any tips/advice/personal experiences with CAMHS?? Would be appreciated. - Peach xox
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Eating Disorder Support / by peachWillow47
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 March 18th, 2015
...See more I hate food, all my feelings around it at the moment are guilt, self hate, anger, and fear. I have always been shy and self conscious. i got it into my head that if feel better if i was smaller. because that's what�makes people like you right?:) ive always been short and a healthy eight i guess, never weighing�over [weight edited by 24Help1] lbs in my life. portions had always been small growing up because i was small. About a year ago i started eating then experiencing intense guilt and making myself throw up. This went on for a few months, regularly happening when i felt 'too full'. I now cant increase my portion sizes. it makes me feel disgusted and racked with guilt. i punch myself alot after eating, i generally avoid eating 3 meals by lying to my family or friends, its just too hard to try and eat the amount that other people think i should. The anxiety is just not worth it. I know people are noticing. i get so paranoid about it. I hide food, buy lunches and throw them away... tell my boyfriend ive eaten when i really haven't. I'm currently 5ft and about [weight edited by 24Help1] lbs. i feel so disgusting when i look at my legs, or stomach or arms... mirrors frustrate and compulse me to hurt myself sometimes. or just stare and scrutinise till i feel ill. i change my clothes so much because i feel ugly in everththing i wear. Im tired and sad all the time, i dont sleep well anymore, i get grumpy, i cant focus in college. Also,�my hair falls out, i bruise so easily, and i hate hating myself so much.�im just done. � Its all getting too overwhelming and i dont know what to do. but i also cant let go.
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