Do i have a problem?
I hate food, all my feelings around it at the moment are guilt, self hate, anger, and fear. I have always been shy and self conscious. i got it into my head that if feel better if i was smaller. because that's what�makes people like you right?:) ive always been short and a healthy eight i guess, never weighing�over [weight edited by 24Help1] lbs in my life. portions had always been small growing up because i was small.
About a year ago i started eating then experiencing intense guilt and making myself throw up. This went on for a few months, regularly happening when i felt 'too full'.
I now cant increase my portion sizes. it makes me feel disgusted and racked with guilt. i punch myself alot after eating, i generally avoid eating 3 meals by lying to my family or friends, its just too hard to try and eat the amount that other people think i should. The anxiety is just not worth it.
I know people are noticing. i get so paranoid about it. I hide food, buy lunches and throw them away... tell my boyfriend ive eaten when i really haven't.
I'm currently 5ft and about [weight edited by 24Help1] lbs. i feel so disgusting when i look at my legs, or stomach or arms... mirrors frustrate and compulse me to hurt myself sometimes. or just stare and scrutinise till i feel ill. i change my clothes so much because i feel ugly in everththing i wear.
Im tired and sad all the time, i dont sleep well anymore, i get grumpy, i cant focus in college. Also,�my hair falls out, i bruise so easily, and i hate hating myself so much.�im just done.
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Its all getting too overwhelming and i dont know what to do. but i also cant let go.
Hey peach....you sound really overwhelmed right now and obviously dealing with a lot. As gentlemom said, we're not able to diagnose or treat. We can help and support you any way you need. That being said, it sounds like you could use some professional help. I urge you to contact someone you can trust that will help you to get that help. As scary as it may be, you'll be takinga huge step towards recovery and a healthy life. Admitting you need help is not a weakness...,it's the strongest thing you can do. Take care.
I'm not actually sure if I have a problem or not. But I know that I hate myself, if I eat and it's like I want to punish myself for it. Wish I knew what was wrong with me, then hopefully I will be able to sort something out
I am very much lazi and scare to talk others.
Hey! Even I'm going through the same (
I think you should find the reason you feel guilty of eating. Is it for example something that happened to you young relating to this? Do you have any foodpreferances(For example do you dislike meat?And why?) ? Do you feel you don't deserve to eat or something?
I think those are some key questions for you find out what's going with yourself.
A professional would defenatelyhelp on that though.
I like all kinds of food, I just feel guilty when eating it. Then when I tell myself not to eat that just makes things worse
Why do you feel guilty? The answear to this question will most probably lead to the solution.
I'm not sure exactly why I feel guilty, I just know that it doesn't feel right
I m hessitant to delve into your problem more in fear that I may cuase more bad than good.I sincerely think though that a professional can help you deal with it in no time :)
I wouldn't mind if you dud. Maybe I'm just overthinking things anyway
Someone at work said I've lost weight, so the plan must be working :)