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So finally got away now stuck

General Support / by proactiveNorth9267

November 8th, 2022

What if I'm nothing or everything idk what I am

LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by proactiveNorth9267

October 30th, 2022

...See more I know it's confusing *** I'm confused Thought I was non-binary but apparently I was just informed that that would not be the correct term for me so I'm even more confused now🤯🤯🤯🤯😵‍💫😵‍💫 apparently I don't know what I like or want I'm pretty much open it anything as long as I'm not getting hurt and I don't discriminate guess cuz of what I've been through I just want real love don't care which box it comes in or turns out 🥳🥳💗💗🌈🌈🥰😍🤩 so what am I tho 🤔🤯👀 Can I make up my owe 😆 😇🤣😈😏😝 don't laugh 🤣 ok you can laugh 🤣 but hear me out👂🦻🙉🤣 U.H.O = UNIDENTIFIED HUMAN OBJECT 🤡🙋‍♀️🙋🏽‍♂️🧜🏽‍♀️🧜‍♂️🧜🧚‍♂️🧚🏾‍♀️🧚🏿🧝🏼‍♂️🧝🏾‍♀️🧝🧞‍♂️🧞‍♀️🧞 🦸🦸‍♀️🦸🏽‍♂️🦹‍♂️🦹‍♀️🦹🧙🧙🏽‍♀️🧙‍♂️🧛🏾🧛‍♀️🧛🏻‍♂️🧑🏽‍🎄🤶🏾🎅 🤣😂🤣😂🤣 LMAO im to much but I like it it fits Instead of UFO 🛸 UHO Honestly what u think 🤔🤣 Just trying to laugh though it all

Thought i could be a side chick with hopes

Relationship Stress / by proactiveNorth9267

October 29th, 2022

...See more I guess the title pretty much says it all Let me start off saying I didn't know he had a girlfriend and I wasn't looking to get feeling for him (if thats what I even really have) it was supposed to be a 1 time thing that I got caught up in Like I said it was supposed to be a one time thing and even after that night in my mind it was just sex nothing more that nights was about 4 years ago smh After that night it became a almost one a week thing keep in mind I know him because of an ex boyfriend thats how we met cant really remember who hit up who on FB 1st but we was sneaking around I thought it was cuz of me cuz I only came around when I wanted to plus didnt want people knowing I was sleeping with my ex friend so I didn't think much of it plus I knew u was sleeping with other people so was I what I didn't know was he had a girlfriend Now about a year later of us messing around I found out he had a girlfriend which was crazy to me cuz if I got into a relationship I would be honest with him and cut him off at least until the relationship went south and he would be the 1st person I would call then that FB message came through and it was her pretty much saying all of us girls sleeping with him better stop cuz he with her I didn't answer just let him know his girl had texted me and left it alone Didnt last long tho cuz he was at my door then in my bed now I know this not right but my logic was if he going to keep cheating on her anyways might as well be with me (at this time feeling feeling wasnt there just more of a low friendship that happens to have sex) Almost 3 years later I've been in and out of relationships and he still going through it with the same chick (now I never told him this but around the end of the 2 year mark I had gotten pregnant by him I didn't tell him because I had alot of miscarriages before and didn't wanna say anything and it wasn't going to last which it didn't I ended up having a miscarriage so never said anything) but by then I was already having feelings but kept it to myself and tried so hard not to show them then one day we got to talking about feelings and my dumb self fell right in knowing he was still with her I just couldn't let him go and for some dumb reason we start talking about having a baby even took steps to really have one (even with know my problems with getting pregnant) but we was trying now do get me wrong we was having problems like if we was in a relationship but always fixed it My bday is what killed it for me it was the 1st time we went out out in public together was supposed to watch a game for my bday but didn't make it in time so we got a room and spent it together afterwards no matter how much I try or no its wrong I can't seem to get away from him or wanna deep down ( I know im stupid for even letting it go this far ) Now to get closer to today not so long ago was a show at my place because she pulled up while he was at my place they got into it same day he picked me up and we left for a couple days out of state now a couple days ago she pulled up again and busted my window O on his bday this happened by the way yet again next day picked me up and we spent time together Now as I'm writing this I know im the biggest dummy in the world but I can't help but want him to walk through my door I've have tried talking myself out of letting him around shoot i even know if I had him he more then likely not going to be who I want plus I've always heard how u get them is how you lose them *** I don't even really know alot about him as he don't know alot about me but I still can't help waiting him with me Open to all comments I really think I need to hear it to help open my eyes or show me im helpless and stuck

Need someone who can handle crazy

General Support / by proactiveNorth9267

October 29th, 2022

Green & m's and sex

Alcohol & Drug Addiction Support / by proactiveNorth9267

November 1st, 2022

...See more Not even joking my life been *** since I was small but it is what it is being from NYC you learn to get over it or fake it till you make it Not even going to start on my past cuz thats to long and dont think this is the place for it so ill just start where it got bad and how I started my addiction please my spelling not great im sorry in advance Well bad relationship and acting foolish lead me to think about coming to Florida my moms didn't help selling fake dreams about it being better in FL so I came with nothing but a couple bags and myself biggest mistake ever 1 already knew I couldn't trust my moms but my 18 self thinking thats my moms after all 2 should have known she had no income she never had a real job 3 should have known she needed me more then I needed her But I still came didn't know she was living in a motel doing sex work on top of having my 3 siblings with her in this motel but once I got here and seen what was going on I knew I was doomed with no way back home She didn't want me to work but also didn't let me do anything but watch her kids (Something you should know only reason I started smoking weed at 15 was because of my Mom she's the one who showed me what it was) I went from having everything to have a nothing then money started getting low and I had to go back to hustling in a place that I don't know we all know that they didn't work well so was told I had to do the same thing she was cause I couldn't find a job and she couldn't afford all of us What you can do when you don't have ID or high school not to mention employment history none at all so it all began I started smoking more to deal with doing it cuz I didnt wanna then I went up to the m's cuz green stopped doing anything and been chasing a high ill never be able to get again just to not feel anything shoot im smoking now as I type this not feeling a high or anything just emotions I can't control bad part is I may be pregnant if not finally dying from the inside out for real this time I can keep going be feel like this was long enough Think I should write a book on what I've been through idk tho what u think feel like ill hurt myself or someone else if I do

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