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Depression Support / by proactiveSea2942
Last post
 January 8th, 2022
...See more ive accidentally ghosted my friends for a month and a half now .. i really want to come back to them before new year but im so scared they might hate me now or think i never valued them which is what makes me chicken out and push back my plan. having a strict family, maintaining my grades and my worsening mental health is what i had to look out for first but it just ended up making me have no time for them in the process. i dont wanna look selfish for dealing w my personal issues, i didnt mean to affect them at all. also maybe it's bc i may have rsd but before this all happened id often see them be more genuine and have more fun with each other compared to when im there just made me doubt my self worth, or maybe im just sensitive? so ig that was one of the other reasons why i isolated myself
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Depression Support / by proactiveSea2942
Last post
 January 1st, 2022
...See more hi, i used to post a thread here before https://www.7cups.com/forum/RelationshipSupport_66/Friendships_256/isolatedmyselffrommyfriends_264225/1/#2825051 about what ive been going through and rn im not sure if it's been any better. you can read the context first if you want but tldr i impulsively shut myself away from my online friends due to my mental health and getting busy w school without any contact and explanation whatsoever. today ive been planning to come back to them for a while, but im still hesitant if i should do so. going back on my socmed acc i saw their dms for and talking about me had started growing colder and they've been checking up less on me. im scared that they might possibly want to cut ties w me because they probably think im avoiding them or no longer care for them when that's not the case. i have to admit i do care for them and they mean a lot to me deeply but i feel bad for not being enough for them atm, i wished i couldve been a better friend for them. ive never had a grudge nor been a toxic friend at all but i just simply think im not on their level. im realizing this is a fault on my part now and im doubting if they'll ever accept my apology bc this was not the first time i went away from my social medias for a concerning amt of time. i believe im not in the right state to deserve friends cause my depression and lack of energy made it hard for me to put up a good impression around them nor give time for them. overtime, it only made me say fewer words, fewer feelings, and it started to feet like i was forcing an ideal personality on myself for everyone. i feel like crying now since ive known them for years and i dont wanna be left as a bad memory to them but ive always doubted if i ever meant anything in our circle. i just thought to myself that it was better to sort this out myself and bottle it up so that i wouldnt bother them. then again giving time for yourself is not a selfish thing and i felt like i really needed it, i just dont know if they can hold up with my excuses any longer :( .. i hope they can understand me and give another chance . if they turn me down or fail to understand my situation i think ill just give up. any advice is encouraged if worst case scenario i lose my friends later bc i might have a hard time processing that. im just rly scared right now, i did this to myself
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