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Concerned? Mental state?
Bipolar, Schizophrenia & Psychosis Support / by reliableCurrent3629
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 April 6th, 2022
...See more So I haven't told anyone yet and iv never seen a therapist but I'm concerned something more is going on and it's giving me a lot of anxiety. A little back story, my father suffered from schizophrenia and depression which lead to his death (suicide) when I was 15. My mother is an addict who was never probably seen by a therapist. For the past 6-7 months I have been hearing words/nosies when I'm alone mostly, in-between the humming of lights/fridge the ac, I know what I am hearing is real it's a lot of repeating moaning..sometimes words.. sometimes full sentences I can never seem to make out all of. But it draws me into where I focus so hard on trying to figure out if it's real? I'm wondering if this is stress or could be something more? Im deeply terrified.
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My boyfriend of years is an addict
Addiction Support / by reliableCurrent3629
Last post
 April 30th, 2021
...See more So you took 2 last night and two this morning ..because you thought you wouldn't go to jail.. I guess this is it..this is going to be my life..why fight it ..I feel nothing less of broken a meaningless blip . When I die my life will mean nothing and there will be no one who loved or cared about me to even bring even a memory alive again.i have loved you more then I thought I could love..but it didn't change anything..then this dark cloud of broken promises and thrown away love started to gather all around me..the cycle continued until there was nothing to look forward to but more. I'm tired. I'm wore out.i feel to empty to have the ability to try anymore.there was only one thing I ever could look forward to when I was a kid. And that was breaking the cycle and finding love...I didn't know what love was and I was stupid to look forward to it..it's just broken pieces and built up memory's. I love you more then I love myself and that was our down fall..
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