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ruam
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PathStep 4 Compassion hearts5 Forum posts2 Forum upvotes4 Current upvotes4 Age GroupAdult Last activeJuly, 2019 Member sinceJuly 9, 2019
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I want to run away
Depression Support / by ruam
Last post
 July 31st, 2019
...See more I hate my family so much. but like, they never did anything wrong. I just hate my mom's voice and her telling me over and over again that we don't have money for anything and her trying to help but making to so much worse. and I hate my pets. I have two snakes ans two geckos like idek how it happened and it's so overwhelming and I want them out of my life. i hate crying in my room and writing in my stupid diary app. I hate my friend. she never did anything wrong. shes so perfect and nice but I feel tired of her. it's the same thing that happened with my last friend, I feel so evil. I don't wanna stay here living with my mom. I hate my room and everything about this house. I hate her. and I hate myself for hating her. I just want to like pack my bags and.. it wouldnt work I'm too scared. I don't have any money. I'm too young to just of off on my own. I just wanna feel loved and I want someone to tell me they really really love me and want me to be happy. I don't wanna go back to school, I can't. but I can't do anything else I'm just so messed up and I wanna start over. but I can't. and I hate it.
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no motivation, I just feel so done
Depression Support / by ruam
Last post
 January 14th, 2020
...See more I'm 13, last school year was the worst year of my life and I can't tell you how scared I am for next year. I see a therapist but she's really mean, I mean like she laughs at me and when I cry she just makes me draw or something so she can eat. i kinda hate my mom, for like no reason and I hate myself for it. my cousin, who was my best friend, did something so stupid and mean to me and she doesn't care. I can tell my only friend doesn't like me. everyday is the same boring routene, I just watch YouTube all day or draw or something. in school I have such bad grades, I didn't pay attention one bit last year. I just wanna hug someone but it really feels like nobodys there for me. I think I'm so mean and idk how to be better. I just wanna move away and start over, I wish I was older so I could move out and be by myself, make some money and get a pet or something. we're so broke right now. I just feel so alone and so crowded at the same time.
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