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scarletGrapefruit9584
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Suffering from relationship anxiety. Previously diagnosed with chronic anxiety disorder / sex addictions.
Anxiety Support / by scarletGrapefruit9584
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 March 1st, 2021
...See more Hello My names Jim I'm 35 and identify as male. I don't want to bore you with too many details so I'm going to try and put this as succinctly as possible. Heres a little relevent history. • Bullied in school • Began suffering from anxiety at age 19, it was to do with travel and worried I'd lose control of my bladder. • I unsuccessfully attempted counselling / CBT • Ended a relationship and suffered from depression for several months • Started and ended another relationship after I slept with an escort • Became convinced I had HIV (I didn't) and had a major episodes of anxiety attacks • Prescribed Citalopram (I still am) • Entered another relationship, I got married and had a child. • During my marriage I searched for escorts, I had several periods of anxiety attacks • The company I worked for went into administration, more anxiety attacks • Diagnosed with Chronic Anxiety Disorder and prescribed Valium • Confessed to searching for escorts and using webcam sites, resulted in the break up of my marriage • 6 months of private therapy for sex addiction. • Entered a long distance relationship This reads like a horror show and is extremely difficult to see listed. It doesn't show any of my wins or things to celebrate, which there were. But I think its worth taking into consideration when I talk about relationship anxiety. The problem now is that I've become extremely dependent on girls to feel validated. I feel incredibly insecure. I can't stand being on my own. I am incredibly anxious I will get dumped again. It looks like I will self sabotage before that happens. I have tried Jogging / Excerise Mindfulness / Breathing Creative hobbies CBT / Therapy (Sex Addiction focused) I think talking therapy may help, I don't know. Perhaps working on myself and finding purpose. Anyone who has suffered the same, I could do with your words. Thanks Jim
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