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secretFriend8229
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Losing hope
Family & Caregivers / by secretFriend8229
Last post
 July 11th, 2022
...See more I don't know how to put it into words. It's too much but I'll try my best to express myself. I grew up in a violent home where fights were normal. It's normal where I live. My family says it's normal but as years passed, I knew something is wrong and this isn't normal. I told my family and explained to them that is not normal and yes, every family argue to a certain extent but not fight. This doesn't happen in every family. Now, almost all the members say that what's happening now isn't normal. Their reason: fights are happening on a daily bases and are more intense which is completely a lie. It was more intense back then. It's like they gaslighted me. Of course, I said, I told you, this isn't normal but then you all said, it's normal and every family fights(like us). Bc of all this, I've BPD and PTSD. Well, I'm sure I've. I worked on worksheets, asked people in the mental health field and watched videos of professional doctors in the mental field, on BPD and PTSD. I'm sure I have these 2 but I can't afford therapy that's why I'm here. And I needed to vent. It's too much. Bc of BPD, affected my work. I wasn't doing any jobs from the start but I don't wanna do that thing that I don't love. It sounds selfish when I want to escape this place. Selfish bc I should do any type of work if I Wanna escape this place. But I can't. I mean I tried but I couldn't bc I started feeling dizzy, opulent focus on any longer. I tried, liked for some days but I couldn't focus on that work. I'm just losing hope of escaping/leaving this place.
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Bpd & Work
Personality Disorders Support / by secretFriend8229
Last post
 July 1st, 2022
...See more Hi everyone, I want to ask a question regarding bpd and work. But first, I'm not diagnosed professionally diagnosed but I'm sure that I've bpd. I knew about other things(symptoms of bpd) but recently, I found out that bpd can affect your work life as well. I tried many things but I failed. I mean, I tried this profession for some days and I liked it but then after some days, I started feeling dizzy, had no interest. And this happened every time. Whenever I tried to do something(whether it's coding, art, etc.) I just couldn't. I wanted to ask if you've felt like this? If yes, then what jobs or which profession would you recommend? I wanna leave where I'm asap but for that, I need to work. But as I explained above, I just couldn't focus on any one thing.
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