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stopplayinwemriot
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General Support / by stopplayinwemriot
Last post
 July 29th
...See more I really need some support. However you deem what support is. I have been in numerous situations where I am blowing up peoples phones. And yes. Before you mention this part, I know it is a problem. I actually deleted my social media. Which was not easy. But I am genuinely looking for emotional support and it’s nowhere to be found. People walk out at your lowest points I realize. I can’t say what a few of mine are because I don’t want to get banned from this app. s - - - - - - a- - - - - is when I had no one. When my dad died, no one I’m sick of texting people and caring about them and their lives and just simply not getting it back. Sitting here hoping I do. And yeah I’m human of course I hope when I ask someone how they are and inquire that they care about me back. I seriously do not have a good support system. When it came to acknowledging my phone blowing up problem I was called a stalker. Okay well why even bother bringing up things I wanna improve on? It’s literally throwing it in my face when I feel bad enough as is And if people read me on read like my mom does I’ll blow their phone up knowing I am making it worse. I just want the responses to my questions. I also eliminated a friend out of my life because she stopped responding and she just smokes too much and I don’t want to be around it some other stuff happened but i also have come to a point where I’m not going to keep someone around to keep them around . I can’t keep doing this. Being ignored is bringing me back to bad times in relationships and not just romantic I’m talking friendships and family. My mom when I’ve explained how lonely I am and have no support she goes- I’m not here to hold your hand or keep you company. How sick? I have no one. No one texts me. Calls me one person. I am so sick with bronchitis and these thoughts are just god awful. Everything is happening all at once [http://once.ma] Does anyone have suggestions to distract from the phone blowing up I’ve done writing and setting timers. Does anytime know of any virtual peer support groups Can someone just be there. Is there anyone out there.
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OCD & Related Behaviors / by stopplayinwemriot
Last post
 July 27th
...See more Hi everyone. I’d love to say I’m scared to post this- but I’m not. I just know this is a last hope situation for me. So I’m open. Because this is a forum. And it is anonymous. And anything is slightly better than the judgement I have gotten from being vulnerable and asking for help from the people in my life and not gotten that help: I got officially diagnosed with OCD last year. I had someone very toxic in my life bring the possibility to my attention. But I realized once I found out more of what OCD really is- it’s a valid diagnosis Ever since a young age- I’ve had thoughts of the people I love dying. Example- my grandma lived two blocks away and I would make up an excuse and call her to make sure she was okay because I heard an ambulance. I did this everytime. I was so young. 6? 7? Maybe up to 9 years old. I slept over her house a lot. She had a regimen she followed. And she slept until almost the same time everyday. And I usually got up before her and I would always press my ear against her door to make sure she was breathing. Things have gotten worse. One thing that’s always been obsessive and intrusive is the paranoia I’m doing something wrong- or someone is mad at me. Could it be that the obsessive thoughts on these things is due to abandonment issues? Because I don’t stop asking until I get the answers I need to be reassured. I have driven people away. Friends. Family. Partners. My main concern though- is how I am blowing up peoples phones. I am always awaiting a response. Hoping someone cares. Feeling unimportant. Worthless. Thinking no one cares. Being rejected or pushed away when I need support. So the second I meet someone who like me as a friend or more- I latch on and obsess and over think- should I buy them this- should I tell them that- what can I do to make them like me. If I don’t get responses to my efforts of making plans, or saying kind things, I will continuously call the person. Text them. If I don’t get yes or no on hanging out, they should expect like 10 texts. The are you mad at me? More than that. This is an obsessive thing I do. And I hate it. And it brings me so much shame and guilt. I’m very uncomfortable with it. And when I have been opener about it my friend and mom called me a stalker. Like why even bother asking for help if that’s what I get in exchange? I have been given tips like writing, typing the messages out on my phone, setting a times. It only helps for so long. It’s so temporary. I just hope someone out there relates. I feel so alone.
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