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tealBlackberry9303
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PathStep 10 Compassion hearts37 Forum posts5 Forum upvotes15 Current upvotes15 Age GroupAdult Last activeJune, 2026 Member sinceMarch 25, 2026
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I wanted to see papa’s reaction.
Grief & Loss / by tealBlackberry9303
Last post
 June 5th
...See more You know… I hate it when my brain forgets things for a second. I was thinking about the upcoming family gathering and thought maybe I could set up a D&D game for my siblings and family members to try. I have a lot of dice, and I thought it might be fun, maybe a little chaotic too. I definitely wanna see what my papa's reaction. Hehehe. Then I remembered. He already passed away. It hurts... Like my chest physically hurts, and every time it hits me, I end up crying. This doesn’t happen once or twice. It happens a lot. I can’t really tell my family because I don’t want to make them sad too.
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Lost Job
Work & Career / by tealBlackberry9303
Last post
 June 16th
...See more Im a 33 years old woman. Lost both parents. My siblings married and have their own life and problems. I live alone with my cat in our old house. My landlord is very nice and a friend of my dad. I lost my job after a relapsed. My family wanted me to move out cause I don't have a job and can't pay the rent. They wanted to send me to live with my aunt and cousin. I don't want to move out. The house makes me feel at home and my landlord wanted me to stay. It's been already 3 months without paying the rent. And with this demotivated feeling from my family keep pushing me out from the house makes me feel messy and depressed. Finding a job isn't easy and I'm still trying to find a job and making commissions online. But it's not enough to pay the rent yet since I just started. I feel tired and lost and homeless. I feel like I have no one to talk to. No positive feedback to encourage me to keep going. Cause time moves on, and my family expect results. They say they are my safety net, but I feel like I'm free falling, just waiting to hit the ground. So, here I am... Sending a thread to feel seen. To get some motivation from strangers. I'm so so tired... I wish I can just sleep and sleep and continue on sleeping.
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