I wanted to see papa’s reaction.

You know… I hate it when my brain forgets things for a second.

I was thinking about the upcoming family gathering and thought maybe I could set up a D&D game for my siblings and family members to try. I have a lot of dice, and I thought it might be fun, maybe a little chaotic too. I definitely wanna see what my papa's reaction. Hehehe. Then I remembered. He already passed away.

It hurts... Like my chest physically hurts, and every time it hits me, I end up crying. This doesn’t happen once or twice. It happens a lot.

I can’t really tell my family because I don’t want to make them sad too.