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I'm sick of being treated like a dumb child
General Support / by thoughtfulSkies8713
Last post
 April 19th
...See more Where to begin ? I'm 18 and I still love with my parents To begin with, for my 18th birthday I wanted a few friends to come home. But my father didn't want to see them and talk to them so I ended up spending my birthday with only my boyfriend. I never spent a birthday with friends. Even if it was my 18, I couldn't. Why ? What did I do to you ? I never asked anything like this. He could have said yes. And even after this, I'm the one who's being called an egoist. After my 18, I thought i was now an adult and I would stop being treated like a child. I thought i would be more free. Wrong. My father still wants to punish me whatever I do or say, and talks to me as if I was a dumb kid. For example the other day i was talking about stuff I was doing on ***. When I saw he was looking angry at the fact I was using ***, I told him i was mature enough to know I mustn't tell my adress, real name and credit card number with people I don't know irl. Afterwards he just answered me "no you're not". Geez, I'm not a *** ! Stop treating me like this already ! Or just if I tell something and explain it a bit too much he just tells me to stop analysing deeply everything I say. Please can I just think the way i think ? Can you accept my brain doesn't work like yours ? Man I feel so frustrated here. I want to leave. I want to be happy. My boyfriend already told me I should run away and come live with him and his mom. He's right, he's the only person i feel good and can be myself with. But still, I'm scared. I don't know why but I couldn't accept his offer. It's dumb but it's true. He offers me a way to leave and be happy, and I can't accept. And I just feel even weaker, small and worthless. I'm just stuck in a cycle of frustration and self loathing. I don't even wanna get up in the morning. I need to be distracted all the time otherwise my brain is too loud. I must be treated like the dumb child, hearing my dad and little bro making fun of me. Let's talk a bit about my brother too. Even if my dad yells at him, he always ends up hugging him and making him laugh. That's something he never ever did with me. I don't want his love but still it's just adding to my frustration. I want to cry and break everything around me, but I can't find the energy to do so. I want to run away and be alone. I want to go somewhere where I can be treated like an adult, and where I feel loved. I want to be happy and be able to look at myself in the mirror, and stop hating on my small and weak body.
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I have everything i need at home, yet I don't feel happy enough
General Support / by thoughtfulSkies8713
Last post
 March 31st
...See more It's hard to know how to start but let's say I'm 18 and I live with my parents Here i have everything i need. Food, a family, a loving boyfriend, a clean house, a good school, a comfy bed, a phone, a laptop, plushies, figures of my fav characters, everything anyone of my age should need. But still, I feel unhappy sometime. For example yesterday night i tried to download a game on my laptop (I don't even know if it could run properly) and my dad came up and asked me what the *** I was doing, still up and messing up with the house's internet connexion. When I explained him everything he told me "okay i'll take away your laptop." When I told him he can't since I need it for school he said he doesn't care. I still feel hurt for this. Because I couldn't download my game ? Because I've been treated like a 10yo child ? Because I always keep my feelings inside and my brain and heart sometime explode ? I don't know. So in order to get comfort i talked with my boyfriend. When I explained him everything, he told me I should run away from home, and come live with him because I'm only truly happy with him. Running away ? It may be a bit too much just for this. I know I already told him stuff about mean stuff that my dad could have told me before (like always comparing me to stinky things even if I guess it's just jokes), but still I feel like it's a bit too much. Plus, in my actual state, I can't do anything against my parents. With my low self esteem, I can't stand before them and tell them "okay I know I have litteraly everything I need here but I don't feel happy so im leaving bye" nor do anything similar. Furthermore, when I see all these children who have been misstreated, slapped, insulted, forced to live in dirty houses or even abused by their own parents, to the point they only want to end their own life, aren't I just a gifted child ? A angry gifted child who's unhappy because the dad wants to take away their lil luminous rectangle ? I really do feel like a child here. *** I'm supposed to be 18, I'm supposed to be free and do whatever I want by now. To finish with the things that happened when I was messaging my boyfriend, he ended up telling me i was just refusing everything he was proposing me in order to help. Of course I was, but I would like him to understand rising against your own parents with low self esteem is harder than he thinks. Also when I told him i needed a way to let my emotions go without being too noisy since it was night, he told me "great, like this nobody will ever know how bad you feel.". Anyway I hope I didn't hurt his feeling at this moment. I really am stuck here. Am I the one who's wrong here ? Should I really run away ? Should I just wait for myself to get better ? Should I blame myself ? Should I consider therapy ? Am I just a gifted teenager crying for nothing at all ? Should I fall into self harm again since it used to help me feel better ? I don't know what to do anymore. I need help.
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