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ymsks0325
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Imposter syndrome
Work & Career / by ymsks0325
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 May 2nd, 2025
...See more I can admit that i KNOW i have imposter syndrome but acknowledging it doesn't make it any easier. I started out as an apprentice and my first boss (my main trainer) was quite condescending and ended up refusing to let me do specific jobs because i wasn't the best at them. I asked to be trained in it and he waved me off. Job 2 the same thing happened after a small amount of training i was told to just not do it and constantly passed up on for praises and the only promotion in my team - i created the team i did everything for over a year and the guy they brought in to be on the same level as me after promising for that whole year theyd never bring someone in above me and give me a chance to be a manager. They put me under him. But looking back on it all his managers were men and they had ‘boys trips’ which were just meetings externally i just dont think he wanted a female manager. My third and current job the manager and the guy i answer to HAS NO IDEA ABOUT ANYTHING hes one of those multiple title dudes that realistically shouldnt have them. But because someone needs it he has it. And its like pulling teeth. Im losing my mind trying to explain choices and reasons to him for him to go no it wont work because it doesnt work in x part of the business. NO IT WONT WORK THERE BECAUSE ITS NOT MEANT TO WORK THERE. Or he’ll do the opposite ‘this works here so it must work with your area too’ NO IT DOESNT. I dont know how much more i can tolerate
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I think my mental health is ruining my relationship
Relationship Stress / by ymsks0325
Last post
 April 24th, 2025
...See more Ive been with my boyfriend almost 7 years now. When we first started dating i was anxious 24/7 but believed it was normal and i was managing with my day to day life relatively well. I started at my apprenticeship and slowly began spiralling until i was having visible panic attacks almost daily - prior to this i had very few visible panic attacks and most were at night when i was alone. He convinced me to get help from the doctors etc which led me to being medicated. All went well i got into the habit of taking them consistently then started mixing up my anti depressants for my birth control and vice versus which messed me up. I started forgetting to take one or the other. Because i didnt experience anything ‘bad’ from forgetting i lost my habit (its so easy for me to lose habits). I still havent managed to pick the habit back up almost three years Ultimately i keep spiralling again and struggling with simply existing, normal easy tasks become so difficult. While im watching him operate like a normal human, hes tried helping show me how ‘easy’ it is to do the same thing but its really not. In my really bad periods i struggle with things touching me because everything just feels wrong. Its too rough and itchy or too soft and suffocating theres very few things that are deemed okay during that time, but everytime it happens he says the same thing, that im avoiding his hugs or any kisses and its making him think i dont want to be with him anymore. - ive explained what it is countless times but it still always happens. When i cant regulate whats happening in my life i lose track of time and almost stop functioning i struggle with wuite literally everything and each time theres one comment about either me being late everywhere or pointing out that im breaking out or sommet. Im a little lost on how to navigate this, he tries to understand but without experiencing it i dont think he ever will. But i do think if this keeps happening itll eventually lead to a breakdown of our relationship because currently we dont live together so i can shelter him from the worst of it but when we move in together later in the year i worry itll be too much for him
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