A final solution
i don’t feel like I’m suicidal but I believe there is a final solution to all my problems which is easier than fixing them the normal way. I also feel like I’m watching my life like a re run of a show. Is this normal?
@Youshimitsue
I am sorry that you are feeling confused and a bit out of it right now. Depression is a horrid illness and can make us believe all sorts of things that are not true. But when we are very low, it becomes harder and harder to distinguish between truth, reality and our minds playing games and leading us to believe falsehoods. Depression causes us to feel disconnected from ourselves and from each other.
You still exist and are worthwhile and valued. The antidote to this dissociation is to very gently connect with the people around you who care. To try and remain grounded in the present and try to keep your mind on the here and now. I really hope that you can start to feel more connected and feel like a participant in life and less of a spectator. All the best xx