More lonely as I am getting older

Hello everyone,

I am just sharing one thing that by the every year passes I am feeling I am more lonely than ever and feeling isolated as I cut the toxic people from my life for my mental wellbeing but at the end of the day , when I see movies or people in general who are compatible and happy with each other, it felt really ***** bad that I can't even describe in words. I really wish I have at least one people in my life with whom I can depend emotionally.

It is at its WORST during the festive period and I wish I could disappear from this world during this time as it fuels my pain and loneliness to ***.

And JUST TO MENTION, I have heard "everything will be fine " "it's just a phase" etc. so many times but belive me it doesn’t help , only those who suffer only they know the pain and when no motivational word work out unfortunately as deep down you know nothing will change in near future.

I sometimes just feel like there's no meaning left being alive without any LIFE.

And yes I wished to attach a pic here but couldn't find any way to do so being a new member.

If you read this far, Thanks so much 🙏🏻

Good byeeeee.