Why God?

God it feels miserable as life went by.

Idk how much longer will I have to go through this.

I can't stand humiliation and manipulatuon from my own family. It almost as if I deserve it.

I fear the future.

I fear my life being a pathetic fool with full of regrets. All I ask God is to give me the strength to be stable enough to keep my life strong. I didn't ask for luxury. Perhaps being humble and considerate gives me nothing... All I did was endure people's ***, taking on their burdens just to fill their voids. Yet, in the end, I succumbed to my own misery