Checking In

I am doing fantastic, equistePeace. I have a purring cat on my lap and a good movie is on- nothing beats that. How are you?

Eh, not too good

Not great. Depressed.

I am so frustrated. I just signed up with BetterHelp after being disappointed for a year with not getting any help on TalkSpace. So far it seems that they are all snakes just trying to make a quick buck without actually working.

I realized I've been trying to address my mental health for over two years but almost no progress has been made due to me having no idea what I'm doing, the difficulty of finding anyone with availability, and unhelpful therapists.

They weren't even doing CBT like I said was the whole reason I was there. But the whole thing has been a nightmare beyond the ineptitude of online therapists, from difficulty getting appointments, psychiatrist trying to prescribe me medication without an evaluation, the difficulty of finding a psychologist.

I want to cry thinking about all the money wasted and income lost over this. And the bitter irony of the fact that I was so resistant and in denial for decades and now I'm finally trying to get help and I have to fight so hard for myself. I just wish someone could tell me what to do, make appointments, and just generally advocate for me.

So now I'm emailing BetterHelp to see if false advertisement is the norm or if I just happened to get matched with a few dishonest therapists.