Alone

Being mad for what he did is okay. Holding that pain day in and day out is hurting you.

@zeetee17

I am ten years past an affair. He was ashamed and tried to leave. I made him stay. I made myself stay. I forced us to remain together for children and finances. I hate him to this day. I wish I had left. I tried to reinvent myself and find happiness in a “partnership” that wasn’t a marriage. Being busy kept me sane, but the hurt never left bc we never healed a couple. Now my kids are grown, and the marriage is still strained. Staying together for the kids bought me ten years… now what ? I’m miserable, lonely, and deeply depressed. It’s ugly but ill be honest: Save yourself.

struggling to find answers too and just silently reading through many stuff. this resonated "need the hate to settle down at its own time" thank you! - so sorry zeetee that you're going through that. for all its worth, been going through this for almost 4 months and the love and hate are always clashing within me. I no longer have words to say to him but most of the time I wish I could shout it all out to him over and over again. why is the biggest question that never seemed to be answered in this situation. I haven't fully accepted and I don't know if I am healing. now it's just nothing - feeling nothing. maybe this is a step closer to forgetting and forgiving and moving on. I wish us both the best and I really hope moving on will come sooner..

@zeetee17, I can understand your pain, Take Care Love yourself, and take Self-care, that is most important. ❤️