Friends
In life you meet a lot of people where some of them makes you feel close to them, but for a short time. While i was small, I used to have lot of friends. We used to play all the time and we felt we were inseperarable. We used to wait for each other in the bus stop and we felt that this bond remains same forever. As I grew older, forever is just a myth . When my friends shifted their priorities , they began to replace our friendship. Today when we go to the same bus stop, we would behave like known strangers. Different time, different mindset and same place. It's not their fault. Some people come into our life for a limited time frame and leave us footprints deeply engraved in our heart. While some of them breaks our spirits and take a part of us when they leave. I remember as I grew older, when my close friends stop making time for our frindship, I would chase behind them for that familiarity, only to end up being a placeholder in their life. I remember crying all the time. Some of them hurted me at last knowing that i am the most sensitive and naive soul. One thing what our heart find difficult to accept is that " people change and its not in our control". You don't need to have lot of friends in your life. Even a friend who is utmost true and genuine to you matters a lot in today's world. You don't need to talk to them everyday. Their presence make you feel home .Today I am alone and lonely and today I want to share all my love and care to all my friends and family in this app.
How was friendship mean to you?
@forcefulBirch2526 wow, I relate to this line so much, "...breaks our spirits and take a part of us when they leave" that's exactly what happened to me...going on 5 years now. Time no longer has any meaning for me. I've always been a caregiver, showing up for people I considered family and assuming they'd be there for me when I was in need. Reality let me know I was naive and gullible...none of those people, some I'd been "friends" with for 30 years stuck around. Each person I gave a piece of my heart to took a piece of me when they abandoned and rejected me. I've since discovered I've never actually known love, and have absolutely no idea what it means to be able to depend on someone. I've never experienced security, safety or support. Being this socially isolated has changed the way I see things and it's isolated me from people even more, because most people want to insist that I see the world through a lens of depression and anxiety + maladaptive behaviors and disassociation. I tell people, I just want to have a conversation, and they tell me to find a therapist. Which is basically saying, "I don't want to deal with you, go find someone else's doorstep to darken". Or they offer suggestions and try to "fix" the problem. I've heard the same thing countless times. Then people get frustrated that I don't want to "try finding a group" "You just haven't found your tribe yet" "go play a board game" "go to church" or my personal favorite "have you tried talking to your friends about how you're feeling?" LOL
@forcefulBirch2526 I still often find myself feeling lonely or sad that the friends I had stopped hanging out with me or really even talking to me when I moved an hour away. It's been hard for me when I think about how little friends I have. But with that I can truly appreciate the friends I do have. I only have one true friend and two "work friends" but they bring me happiness and joy. I truly appreciate and love them dearly.