Overwhelmed
I am feeling overwhelmed about everything because I used to suppress my emotions since I was just a child.
I grew up with my mom and believed that my father was dead but one day, I received a call from my mom's phone and it says unknown number, when I answered it, the guy on the phone said he was my father, my mother then explained the truth and I just remained silent, I don't know what to feel, I'm not angry or sad I just felt like I have nothing to say.
When I met him, I was in grade 3, maybe i was a little bit in denial but our meeting broke me, I stopped studying well and started having anger issues.
My mom died when I was 12, I stopped studying and was forced to lived in the province with my uncle, ff. my education records got messed up because every year i switch schools, i am 18 now and I couldn't even enter senior high due to lack of money and documents, i couldn't even get a job because i don't have any IDs or legal documents that proves that i exist.
I went through a lot of pain, mentally and physically, my life was even threatened.
I am now feeling overwhelmed, and I obviously need help but I couldn't find the right person to listen to me or I just felt like no one would.
This is really rough. The fact you are surviving and seeking improvement is a good sign of how tough you are…but I am sad that you had to be so tough. I hope you’re able to open up to someone who can help you.
I hope so too
@melonchaly02 wow. It sounds like you endured a LOT of trauma and loss when you were young. Bottling up emotions or staying "numb" are coping mechanisms that we sometimes use in order to protect ourselves. And they probably served you well as you were growing and maturing. Now that you are an adult, maybe you are more ready to deal with those things in your past - even if it is scary, or intimidating, or there are unknowns.
Please reach out to a listener if you'd like to talk 1-1 about what you are thinking and feeling and going through. Just go to www.7cups.com/ BrowseListeners You can search for keywords like anxiety, depression, or family issues, and look for others who have lived experience in that selected area.