Disabled, Divorced, Late Bloomer LGBT, Alone
I’m 44 years old and entirely on my own without friends or family. Was recently homeless and came out a lesbian a year ago. What does one do when disowned in a small town? Lost career, no children, no possessions, no car, no family, no friends. I just existing is getting old but I’m weak with too much life experience.
Just know you are not alone. I too have no family or friends no children. Honestly, I never really felt love or emotional connections from anyone. I recently turned 40. I am having a mid-life crisis. I am rushing to meet people on dating apps but nothing has panned out. I got a dog and he helps but I still feel the crushing pain of loneliness every day. I always have nightmares at night only to wake up back to my reality. I often wonder why I keep going and would it just be easier to give up. But I just keep on hoping that things will get better and that little bit of hope keeps me going. Some days my feeling of hope is stronger than others but that is all I have. And I also think it could be worst. I could be sick, disabled, without food. I don’t know. My advice is to keep hoping and keep working towards the things that will make you happy until you simply cannot any longer
I am feeling lonely too. My wife wants to leave me and her family is my only family and we really don't have friends. I'm so depressed and feel helpless. I know she still loves me
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You are loved
Loneliness as you age is a sign for us to look for new beginnings. There’s a lot of life left to live and we can make it worth while together.
I'm sorry to hear about all that you're struggling with. It truly sounds overwhelming. Being gay in a small town is something we share in common, however I'm in my 50's now so I don't even turn up in anyone's search results since most singles are looking for people under 45, and I'm too old for the bar scene. Anyway, I hope your living situation resolves. Sometimes having nothing can be better than having everything, in the sense that you have nothing left to lose. You get to build your life from the ground up, and start over. I don't know what circumstances led you to this place, but if you struggle with mental illness or addiction, there are a lot of resources and people who can help you get back on your feet. Have you checked into any of them?
