Feeling so overwhelmed

I'm new here. I'm in the UK & finding hard to tell my friends how I'm feeling. My Dad died suddenly 2 years ago, I was married but not very happy. 8 months ago I broke up with my husband, its been hard over lockdown...my older children are here but still been quite lonely. A month ago I started seeing someone, all seemed to be going well & starting to think this could get serious and then he says he needs to think about what he wants before we get more serious. Worrying about distance, which is a 45 min car drive & he wants children. Which is fine if he needs to think but I've never been in this situation before. I've never dated before. I've not text him for a week but it's making me feel so anxious, I just want to know whether he's thinking or we are done. Everyone keeps telling me not to text him, but I'd like to know so I can move on if I need to. I want to be with someone & I really like him so would like it to be him, but if he's not feeling the same I'd like to know. I dont understand why it's an issue to ask, rather than trying to ignore the situation. I just don't get the dating games. Also, my mum started dating someone new a year ago. It's quite strange seeing my mum with someone else, but I do want her to be happy. My sister & brother who are both 30+ aren't happy still & regularly text me telling me the issues they have with our mum..im finding it's taking its toll on me now. Ive sat here tonight just crying because I feel so overwhelmed by it all & I'm tired of being alone, in my marriage I was alone alot too. I have my children but they are older & have their lives, feel like I shouldn't be feeling like this at my age. My friends are all recently married, just had babies so busy. Feeling like I have no one to turn too. I've also recently started taking birth control & been bleeding for 9 days, feeling so emotional/anxious & teary. I'm just so fed up & want to be happy