I dont know..
I always fight with myself, oppose myself with some of the decisions I make, or even argue with myself!, I don't know if I'm doing this to myself, or if there's someone else with me! I'm literally tired of all this. It makes me feel weak and frustrated at my lack of productivity. I'm not schizophrenic, but I don't know what I'm going through.
This feeling makes me unable to focus. And it doesn't make me stronger practicing my hobby which is programming.
Knowing that I'm a high school student. I don't know if this is normal. I hope I'm fine, and that you're fine.
@barbon
Hey barbon, I can tell you from experience that you are not alone in feeling this way. I was very much the same way in high school, and it came up again when I started university! When you enter high school, you are at the age when people begin to find out more about themselves, what they stand for, and how their morals and beliefs differ from that of their families. It can seem exhausting and confrontational at times, but that's totally normal! All of this self-conflict is a completely normal stage in carving out your own unique identity as you grow into the amazing person you are. Hang in there! It will teach you a lot, and the journey will make a lot more sense when you're on the other side of it. Good for you for reaching out here too! Best of luck to ya, and I hope things turn around for you soon :)