My story
Hi there,
I do not know how to start. When I was a little, my parents used to treat me so bad, I was the youngest and the mistake after 5 years as a gab between me and my brother, I am the 7th child. The gab was huge between me my elder sister it's more than 16 years old. I was getting treated bad by them, they did not have time to look after me and my mom was calling me bitch since I was 7 or so. She was on medications for some depression issues. She does not trust her daughter and she thinks we all bitches or whores except my elder sister. My grandba was harassing me sexually and my brother the one who is right before me, he was touching me and kissed once and I was like a bag of shit. My elder brother was beating me too. My parents were passive like we so do not care, even they were not buying me things. My dad was money lover. Anyways, I grew up lying to ppl to make them.love me but no way, no friends. Angry all the type, very judgmental, very hater to men. I screwed up at relationships and screwed up at work because, I was tough and unexpected although I am really good at what I do. I worked at place and they damaged my reputation like she is tough and very harsh when it comes to work but I deliver and do well. They stopped socializing with me and bad mouthing me and I had to quit and to the industry is small, so they could damage my career completely and I got screwed up. I am so beautiful and smart and this makes me alone and makes men always want to share because I was rejecting them. I dunno what to do or where to go. I have so much anger inside me.
@limegreenVase6869
hi there ! i am so sorry , this feeling doesnt seem easy to deal with you ca connect with a therapist physically or here on 7 cups i think it will help you a lot .
stay strong and dont let this break you
love
Sara
Therapist it will be the best choice I believe and it's easy to say then to do but forgiveness, making peace with past is the healing way.
The history's life of Louse Hay that she share in the book YOU CAN HEAL YOUR LIFE ot's a very inspiring one.
@limegreenvase6869,
omg this is so disturbing even to read I’m so sorry you had to go through all this since you were a child. What makes me upset is how can a mother be this way to their own child calling her names and making you feel like you are worth nothing. This is totally unacceptable I cannot believe these type of women are even able to have kids and be called a mother because they are mistreating their own blood. How can your parents even allow that to happen, your own grandpa and brother abusing you and touching you I’m so sorry :( but how can a mother allow this and not protect their children at such young age, I don’t even want to ask you if you told her, because base on the details it looks like she didn’t even care about you. No wonder you feel the way you do you have so much anger inside and you don’t trust people I wouldn’t either if I had to go through such horrible experience. I know you don’t know me but I just wanted to point out have you gone to a therapist to overcome this or talk about your feelings? I know it must be hard but I hope that by now you are separate from that cruel family of yours. I know that some people say forgive to feel better but how can you forgive the person that hurt you the best especially your own family. Please try to talk to someone even if it has to be a friend anyone close to you that might understand you if you can’t find a counselor is better than keeping it inside that is just making you feel worse and worse every day. I’m sorry if my posting is not something that could help you but it’s making me upset and sad just by reading this why do parents allow this when they are the ones that are suppose to be the ones protecting you loving guiding you :(
