New here and need some input...

I'm in love with someone... They are the woman of my dreams..I'm basically with her but at the same time I'm not 😔 and it's one of the toughest things I've ever gone through in my life. She checks every box... Not manipulative... Not mean... None of that.... Not just giving in to my every desire either... Just... The perfect balance. She struggles with some inner issues... And the father of her youngest still lives at the house (they are not together and he knows about me). He's not a nice person. I am. She still feels very restricted because of him and he still does things like try standing in her way when she wants to leave the house, and does other things to make it so she can't leave at times. Her and I hang out (not at her house or mine)... We hug and kiss. Laugh. Smile. All the warm happy stuff. (Not sex and taking things very slow(which is actually really nice)). But IDK... I want her to be my girlfriend but she's just not ready yet.. We have had so much growth but... It's just.. I'm struggling here. I have crazy anxiety (not from her but I've had it for years). I always feel like she could leave me any second...I always fear the worst (even though that is never the case and something always happens to show me things are the opposite... Not until after I'm sweating about it for a little bit)... Does anyone else go through moments of anxiety? Thinking that worse? Feel disappointed by things you shouldn't? Anyone have any advice or input?