feeling really hopeless
i feel like i have no future. i think my heart has been broken too many times and i dont have the resilience left to find someone in the future. but when i think about being alone forever, i get stuck on the fact that i really hate my job (which i need to pay for my house, and cant sell/rent elsewhere because my credit is so terrible) and there are no redeeming aspects of my life. i have no hobbies that i enjoy (i have less function in the right side of my body, which means no balance, which means no running, dancing, or even walks unless im ok with blisters from dragging my foot). i have cats that need me to feed them, but it feels like thats the whole purpose of my existence. im really really really depressed, and i dont know what to do.
Hi, I'm SweetPea and I'm alone too, except for my daughter, but I mean no partner. I actually couldn't imagine having a partner during this time in life. My daughter is autistic and she takes alot of time and energy to care for. I don't barely have friends that I can see either because of it. Not complaining about my daughter. I love her. It's just my reality.
I'm not currently enjoying hobbies like I used to either. Every day is a struggle, but I keep trying. That's all we can do, right? I take psych meds and talk to a therapist. Have you tried talking to your doctor to see what they suggest?
Life will get better. Hang in there ❤
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